Okay, okay. . . . .
So I'm here and it's a mixed bag. Stacey and I have talked a lot. He met Eileen and family passed that test. He spent the day witht the Drama Queen road show known as Arianna and Sia. Eileen gave me this song and dance about keeping secrets so I gave in, they met she thinks he's nice. Nerves are tense right now because we are saying goodbye to a woman that has meant so much to both Arianna and myself. She is our last connection to the woman that raised me and my childhood history. She is dying, no bullshit. She is basically skeletal at this point and in a lot of pain. Her husband who is 90 and has been with her since they were in high school has gone all to pieces. We have so few people on our list and we're losing one. Arianna is very sad.
the flip side to all this is that I'm in LOVE with someone who gets me. And my joy at that is tempered with my sadness with losing her. He gets my woundedness and he's willing and able to wait until I can accept that he loves me, too. Um, this is BIG people. I have cried tears of sadness, ecstasy, relief, exhaustion all weekend. Feelings are intense.
Light a candle for us today as we say goodbyes. Keep your fingers crossed as I say hello.
the flip side to all this is that I'm in LOVE with someone who gets me. And my joy at that is tempered with my sadness with losing her. He gets my woundedness and he's willing and able to wait until I can accept that he loves me, too. Um, this is BIG people. I have cried tears of sadness, ecstasy, relief, exhaustion all weekend. Feelings are intense.
Light a candle for us today as we say goodbyes. Keep your fingers crossed as I say hello.