the void
i feel like alot of my relationships are deteriorating... some not because i dont want them to be there- but because of lack of trust, or lack of effort. im not looking for like consolation or anything but just to send this out into the void... why do people always, almost inevitably, grow apart? have you ever looked at a best friend and thought you saw something going on that you have no idea about? or get the feeling that your best friend isnt being honest with you at all about hs/her habits? i hate being lied to and i hate trying to mend over and over relationships that seem sometimes like they are built on nothing. so anyway, goodbye, dear void... you never could answer my questions. september is coming soon which means a huge chunk of me will be heading off to different parts of texas to go to different schools... which means that it could be months or even a year before we are all together again. i worry about the well being for some of them. i pray for them constantly... i just dont want to see these people, these amazing people who i have been lucky to know and befriend, waste their amazing god-given potential on a few nights of partying and drinking... the sacrifice will ALWAYS be worth it in the end. and all i can do is promise that.