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A large snake just crawled into my office. Do snakes "crawl"? I suppose it slithered. I almost left him -- cold weather is coming and the mice will invade -- but was worried he might get lost, die, and putrify in some inaccessible place. I relocated him to the garden.
The children are in school now. I can remember being in school and thinking of the outside world going on without me. I am the one "going on" now, able to do what I want (up to a point). It wasn't a good feeling being on the other side. I didn't like that there was a world of freedom outside of school that I was missing, but worse than that, there was an awareness (from sick days, etc) that the adult world outside of school was quiet, empty of other children, and full of useless errands; it was a very early case of wanting something and knowing that the thing would fail to satisfy if it were obtained. A taste of things to come, betrayed by hollow desires, though they seem to lose their venom later in life. I feel like an old shoe. I know where the holes are and when the dew will creep in.
The children are in school now. I can remember being in school and thinking of the outside world going on without me. I am the one "going on" now, able to do what I want (up to a point). It wasn't a good feeling being on the other side. I didn't like that there was a world of freedom outside of school that I was missing, but worse than that, there was an awareness (from sick days, etc) that the adult world outside of school was quiet, empty of other children, and full of useless errands; it was a very early case of wanting something and knowing that the thing would fail to satisfy if it were obtained. A taste of things to come, betrayed by hollow desires, though they seem to lose their venom later in life. I feel like an old shoe. I know where the holes are and when the dew will creep in.