when will things ever not change?
i swear every time i really like something or a situation is going exactly how i want it to, it quits doing that and bites me in the ass. *sighs* i'm not sure who to like or what to think. Tomorrow they could decide they don't like me or that i'm not worth it. I use code names....so no one will know who the hell i'm talking about, i think i will use them now. Big Mac is a compulsive lair and will be nothing else for the rest of his life. He is clearly hiding something from me, the question is what is it? He's a pot smoking loser who makes me feel bad about who i am, and yet i keep him around. WHY??!!! Quit fucking doing that!!! i yell at myself for it all the time. He's as addicting and terrible for me as the drugs he intoxicates his body with. I guess that would make him my drug. I don't want him anymore, i want him gone.
Now for my other situation on this subject as well...i like this person, they have no idea, i don't think they want to know in all honesty. let's call this person....hm....brussle sprout(b.s....hahaha!!!) so yeah b.s. is really nice and funny and makes me feel good about myself. The only problem is that i'm pretty sure he doesn't even know i exsist. a bit depressing, but it's life.
Now for my other situation on this subject as well...i like this person, they have no idea, i don't think they want to know in all honesty. let's call this person....hm....brussle sprout(b.s....hahaha!!!) so yeah b.s. is really nice and funny and makes me feel good about myself. The only problem is that i'm pretty sure he doesn't even know i exsist. a bit depressing, but it's life.