where the fruit is as sweet as can be

[memphis86]

I woke up in a RIDICULOUSLY good mood today. And have been in that good mood ever since, which is odd considering I spent most of my subway ride composing this really tl;dr post in my head about how I used to be, and how depressed I was at different points in my life, how I used to have a fondness for different vices which lead me to where I am, and how I slowly pulled myself out of said depression. How I still have to give myself pep-talks every now and then. How I'm really WEIRDED OUT that people consider me a generally happy person. And especially how WEIRD it is that I kinda AM? So yeah, I realize I don't really discuss that part of my past here. I rarely mention it to people that haven't known me for more than 3 years. But I don't know, I feel this kind of tapping at my head, this need for catharsis, expiation. To just put it out there and have it be said, already. Because like I said above, if you knew me in high school or junior high, you wouldn't recognize me today. And that's a GOOD THING. And um, would such a post be of interest? Or just me being an egomaniac. I mean everything I do IS already me being an egomaniac...

But no, still in a ridiculously good mood, even though boss was throwing TONS of things at me at work (even she stopped to apologize for doing so, which is nice!) I dunno, I somehow have started to grow this Teflon skin of sunshine. FINALLY.

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Today it was VERY HARD not to start dancing on the subway platform or in the train. To "In Bloom" by Nirvana. I KNOW, I AM SO THAT GIRL THAT CAN DANCE TO NIRVANA WITHOUT IRONY.

I'm so buying flowers today on my lunchbreak. :D