EIGHTEEN.

[memorysuicide]

Just a... dream, right? Just a weird dream.

I wonder why I thought of her though. I wonder why I'm still keeping it.

Not that I really have much of my own possessions here. Most of this stuff I got while I was in Silent Hill that time, except for the camera. Except for... Mary's photo.

Just. A photo isn't enough though

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[betterassister]

We never forget the people we care about. Even if we move on.

[memorysuicide]

Still, it feels like I'm forgetting everything about her, even though I don't want to. How. Much longer till I can't remember anything about her, aside from her face?

[betterassister]

Then...sit down and remember. Write them down. All the good times, all the bad, all the quiet moments that seemed insignificant at the time. Just...reflect on them. They'll come back to you, the more you don't run from the hurt of it.

[memorysuicide]

...I.

I'm not satisfied with only memories. If it wasn't for this goddamn city, I'd- ...

[betterassister]

You'd what?

[memorysuicide]

I'd...

Mary. You know. She'd...sometimes wait for me to come home from work. Even though I said it was okay, but she'd wait for me anyway. So that she could just. Smile. And welcome me home.

Laura was right. She was waiting all this time. She's always been waiting for me. But I never. I never deserved any of it. She didn't deserve a fool like me.

[betterassister]

Don't say that, James. You were a family together. It sounds like she loved you.

[memorysuicide]

She shouldn't have.

She should've never met me.

She should've never said "Yes"

[betterassister]

What happened between you two?

[memorysuicide]

She was sick. She needed me. But I couldn't. I tried, but. I was tired of it.

[betterassister]

That sounds like it would be hard on anybody.

I'm sure she...forgive you. Understands.

[memorysuicide]

It's all my fault.

[betterassister]

Sometimes accidents and bad things happen...

If you still care about her now, if you still want to remember her, that's all that matters.

[memorysuicide]

Maybe. But I...

Nevermind. I'll, try to keep that in mind.