Jul 28, 2004 01:00
And I'm sorry that it didn't quite work out this time. So you can deal with your regret and I'll deal with mine. And don't forget to call me when you "make it." And for now I'll just think what I want. Well don't tell me that it's nothing when I can see it's killing you. And I'll take every word you say as gospel - take it straight to heart. And I hate you, but I love you, and I swear it doesn't matter. You're running away, screaming "I can't take this." You beat me and you broke me, and now I'm falling down. If I'm falling down, pretend you don't know.
-Time and Distance
What's the good news kids? Well, I'm tired as hell, and I'm going out of town again in almost exactly a day. Anyways, thank you to all of you that asked questions. They were great. I hoped I was able to answer them as best I could. I tried. Anyways...the question for this entry is probably something that I've asked before, but I want to hear it again. Seriously, what do you all think of me...good and bad? I've been going through alot of things, and I've heard some good things and some bad things. So, you all can clear this up. Don't worry. I won't get upset and you guys can gang up and bad mouth me as a group if you'd like. Either way, answer.
Well, in NHI...things are awesome and stressful. We just got back from going to a debate we had never gone to before. We won the debate and beat 8 other teams to do it. We are now 2 for 2 when it comes to NHI YLC 4-day Great Debates. We leave tomorrow to see if we can make it a clean sweep and win 3 for 3. Aside from the fact that we won, alot of other awesome things happened on this trip. I got some closure on some things that had been on my mind for a while...that was really good. I also got to get really close to a couple of the kids from the NHI group. They really helped me out and things got pretty emotional. It was awesome. And lastly, I met a really awesome girl named Lisette. She was the on-site director for the tournament. We clicked really well and talked alot when she was able to take a break from on-site directing...lol. Then on the night of the dance, me and her talked for like 2 hours straight and then hung out with this girl Amanda and my good friend Chris afterwards. It sucked having to say goodbye, but we exchanged numbers and we'll hopefully keep in contact and maybe even visit each other. We'll see what happens.
With God, things are kinda rough. Because of this past weekends tournament and this weekend's tournament, I'll be missing two Sunday's of Mass. And I still haven't gone to confession. Plus, we haven't had our Tuesday meetings in a while either. But it's weird, cause I still feel pretty close to God. He's been helping a lot with the different stressful things I've been going through. And now I finaly realize that everything does happen for a reason. I'd been praying for certain things to happen a certain way, and now I'm so glad that they didn't. Good job God...way to do it.
With music, things are picking up. We finally have merch to sell. Actually we only have one thing to sell. We have stickers. They look pretty damn cool and we're selling them for $1. I know it's a bit much, but we really want to raise some money, so if you want one, let me or Dan know. And hopefully, within the next week or two, me and Dan are going to record between 3 and 5 songs. Our good friends from 6 under par are going to help us out and make it sound awesome. So we can hopefully have some cds to sell soon. And we're still trying to schedule one show. It will be on Aug 16 with Time and Distance and 6 Under Par. So if you all have any ideas for a place to have it...please let me know. But yeah, that's about it. Me and Dan are both working on new songs, and we'll hopefully be able to play more shows as we finish them and as school starts and shows start picking up. But I'll keep you all posted.
In the girl department, ain't too much going on. Like I said before, me and that girl Lisette hit it off pretty well, but she lives like 16 hours away, so I doubt anything is going to happen there. But it's cool though, cause right now, I'm not really looking for someone. Of course I wouldn't mind meeting an awesome girl and/or having a girlfriend, but for now, I'm taking a break from looking. If someone comes along, awesome. If not, oh well. But I'm really tired of the games that keep going on, so I think I'm taking a well deserved break. yeah...
Well guys, that's about it. I'm leaving tomorrow, so if you want to comment and have me see it before I go....do it fast. Anyways...for now remember to forget.