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I'm in a really weird zone right now.
I don't really get it, but more or less I still don't feel like myself, I have alot of times that I do, but then I hit these weird moments. I want to be social, sort of. But mainly I kind of just like hanging out with my parents and watching movies at night. I wake up so fucking early all the time that I go to sleep really early to compensate and I feel really old. School has been really demanding and I'm working my butt off, I'm doing really well in classes so its good, but fuck my social life is really weird. I'm perfectly happy hanging out with people during the day, but for some reason the night is my nemesis. I just get really tired and boring and over it. I don't know what's wrong with me or what's going on, but I guess it's just a phase. I just don't ever feel like doing things at night. Even when I know it's fun. This really isn't who I have ever been or wanted to be, but I've just totally retracted back into my shell. I hate being alone, but I don't really like being out either, fuck I don't know.
I'm a bad teenager essentially.
So if I seem weird I'm sorry, I'd love to hang out with people during the day! but for some reason I just feel no attraction to going out and staying out late and stuff. I really don't get it, but that's kinda where I am right now...
crap this is weird.
I don't really get it, but more or less I still don't feel like myself, I have alot of times that I do, but then I hit these weird moments. I want to be social, sort of. But mainly I kind of just like hanging out with my parents and watching movies at night. I wake up so fucking early all the time that I go to sleep really early to compensate and I feel really old. School has been really demanding and I'm working my butt off, I'm doing really well in classes so its good, but fuck my social life is really weird. I'm perfectly happy hanging out with people during the day, but for some reason the night is my nemesis. I just get really tired and boring and over it. I don't know what's wrong with me or what's going on, but I guess it's just a phase. I just don't ever feel like doing things at night. Even when I know it's fun. This really isn't who I have ever been or wanted to be, but I've just totally retracted back into my shell. I hate being alone, but I don't really like being out either, fuck I don't know.
I'm a bad teenager essentially.
So if I seem weird I'm sorry, I'd love to hang out with people during the day! but for some reason I just feel no attraction to going out and staying out late and stuff. I really don't get it, but that's kinda where I am right now...
crap this is weird.