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Anis is laying on the phone laughing with Eghan. His stomach is shaking very hard, and my legs are drapped over him. Making this typing hard to accomplish. It seems each time he stops laughing he starts again harder. It is very interesting to listen to boys talk on the phone. It seems they do not know anything about girls, as girls know nothing about boys. Oh joy!
I started going to a therapist this week. She has one of those hush-hush voices that make you want to curl up and sleep. I liked talking to her, but I am sure as we stroll further into my life this won't be fun anymore. She makes intense eye contact and whenever I glance up from the table it seems very intimidating to be there. But oh well, this is what everyone has agreed is best for me. Seeing as it's hard to get out of bed, and when I do get out of bed it's hard to stay out of bed... well, I suppose it's good to talk a little. I have to go once a week for a few months. And as long as she keeps this soothing voice I think it'll be alright.
My job is going alright. My boss is a bit too muhc to handle sometimes but it's okay. I told her off today and she told me I am overly sensitive. But honestly here is the situation- my boss calls me every morning AFTER my shift to ask me a million questions and tell me all the things I've done wrong. She never tells me anything positive and she expects me to be available for about 3 15-20 minute phone calls a week at 8 AM. I told her these calls were inappropriate. She has agreed to stop calling. I have not aggred to stop calling her a bitch. HUZZAH.
I do not know where I want to be in my life. It's agrivating the shit out of me, as my brother keeps getting more and more sucessful and the golden boy. My parents seem to only smile upon me when they feel pity because I can't make it through the day without crying. I feel so lame.
PEACE
I started going to a therapist this week. She has one of those hush-hush voices that make you want to curl up and sleep. I liked talking to her, but I am sure as we stroll further into my life this won't be fun anymore. She makes intense eye contact and whenever I glance up from the table it seems very intimidating to be there. But oh well, this is what everyone has agreed is best for me. Seeing as it's hard to get out of bed, and when I do get out of bed it's hard to stay out of bed... well, I suppose it's good to talk a little. I have to go once a week for a few months. And as long as she keeps this soothing voice I think it'll be alright.
My job is going alright. My boss is a bit too muhc to handle sometimes but it's okay. I told her off today and she told me I am overly sensitive. But honestly here is the situation- my boss calls me every morning AFTER my shift to ask me a million questions and tell me all the things I've done wrong. She never tells me anything positive and she expects me to be available for about 3 15-20 minute phone calls a week at 8 AM. I told her these calls were inappropriate. She has agreed to stop calling. I have not aggred to stop calling her a bitch. HUZZAH.
I do not know where I want to be in my life. It's agrivating the shit out of me, as my brother keeps getting more and more sucessful and the golden boy. My parents seem to only smile upon me when they feel pity because I can't make it through the day without crying. I feel so lame.
PEACE