(copy from journal - fatigue run amuck)
Fatigue
My fatigue has been horrible recently. Normally, I go through cycles; sometimes very achey and fatigued, and other times very tolerable. It's been good lately but now... ugh, it's awful. Yesterday I wanted to cry I felt so bad. My whole body hurt like it does when you've had the flu for two weeks, I was so tired I felt like I was passing out, and I was dizzy and unable to focus. We had to go to Love's parents - an hour drive away - for Father's Day (a day I hate, though I try not to let it show when we see Love's dad because he's really a sweetheart. It just doesn't change the fact I wish I could burn the day off the calendar forever) and it was more then I could handle. I got home and felt so sick, that even though I was starving, I couldn't eat. I was just exhausted and miserable. I felt so wrong.
Today, I couldn't get out of bed. And here it's 3pm and I need to take a shower, but it feels like asking me to climb Everest. So impossible, I want to cry. I don't know why it's so bad all of a sudden. Maybe it has to do with my cycle this week...? I don't know. I just know it's bad. Worse then it's been in a long time.
I got a call from K. today. She asked if I could come in and cover for them on Friday. I agreed of course but it still stings to cover for your own replacement. It'll be $80 though and I can desperately use the cash. I've been pimping out my runes and had a TON of positive feedback and people talking about ordering a set...and then not a single one sold yet. *sighs* I was hoping to sell a couple sets to give me money for food/gas this week. Looks like that's not happening.
Anyway, I need to shower. If I don't try to do it now I won't manage at all. And I feel scuzzy and gross and really want a shower. Just a bad start to the week. Oh! And poor Love is really sick. He missed Thursday AND Friday from work because he's been sick (throwing up and such.) Felt better Saturday, worse again yesterday and is at work today trying to get an appointment with the doctor. Something's really wrong. We don't have any idea what since if it was a stomach flu, it (a) should be better by now and (b) I should have gotten it. Food poisioning wouldn't last this long. So he's sick, I'm in a horrible spoonless state right now and we're broke. Fun times.
My fatigue has been horrible recently. Normally, I go through cycles; sometimes very achey and fatigued, and other times very tolerable. It's been good lately but now... ugh, it's awful. Yesterday I wanted to cry I felt so bad. My whole body hurt like it does when you've had the flu for two weeks, I was so tired I felt like I was passing out, and I was dizzy and unable to focus. We had to go to Love's parents - an hour drive away - for Father's Day (a day I hate, though I try not to let it show when we see Love's dad because he's really a sweetheart. It just doesn't change the fact I wish I could burn the day off the calendar forever) and it was more then I could handle. I got home and felt so sick, that even though I was starving, I couldn't eat. I was just exhausted and miserable. I felt so wrong.
Today, I couldn't get out of bed. And here it's 3pm and I need to take a shower, but it feels like asking me to climb Everest. So impossible, I want to cry. I don't know why it's so bad all of a sudden. Maybe it has to do with my cycle this week...? I don't know. I just know it's bad. Worse then it's been in a long time.
I got a call from K. today. She asked if I could come in and cover for them on Friday. I agreed of course but it still stings to cover for your own replacement. It'll be $80 though and I can desperately use the cash. I've been pimping out my runes and had a TON of positive feedback and people talking about ordering a set...and then not a single one sold yet. *sighs* I was hoping to sell a couple sets to give me money for food/gas this week. Looks like that's not happening.
Anyway, I need to shower. If I don't try to do it now I won't manage at all. And I feel scuzzy and gross and really want a shower. Just a bad start to the week. Oh! And poor Love is really sick. He missed Thursday AND Friday from work because he's been sick (throwing up and such.) Felt better Saturday, worse again yesterday and is at work today trying to get an appointment with the doctor. Something's really wrong. We don't have any idea what since if it was a stomach flu, it (a) should be better by now and (b) I should have gotten it. Food poisioning wouldn't last this long. So he's sick, I'm in a horrible spoonless state right now and we're broke. Fun times.