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So let's see in the past month I have found out that having only 3 Rite Aids in all of Arizona isn't good enough compared to the other states that have 500+ so what happens? Some shirts from cali came and told us "okay we're shutting all 3 down. The store will go through liquidation but pharmacy you have two weeks." Two weeks to close and find another job in the process. I closed our pharmacy working 7 days straight the last week putting in over 65 hours. Only to go over to the other pharmacy and close theirs. Now both pharmacies are done and I am working on floor again it feels weird to be back on floor after over a year in pharmacy. As of 2-15 I will have worked for this company for 3 years and for what? I don't have a set job yet for after the liquidation and plans have fallen through on future living arrangments. I have lost countless hours of sleep over this. I know people are just trying to help but if one more person asks me what I'm going to do after the store closes I think I just might go insane. The truth is I have no idea. I'm scared, stressed, lost, unsure but most of all disappointed. A week ago I had settled on an idea that would keep me with my family and now that's not an option. So for now I am stuck in this town with a store that's closing, no family and no way of knowing where I will be in the next couple of months. What I would give to have my dad here for his advice. My father was taken away from me exactly 2 years ago tomorrow. My chest aches at the thought. I miss him more than words can ever express. I know if he were here he could help me...but then again if he were here I wouldn't be where I am now.
Signs are pointing in all directions and only one seems appealing...but not solid. What if I fail? What if it doesn't work out? I'm a month away from turning 21 but I feel like it should be 40. I'm too young for this stress, can't I just shake a magic ball and that be that?
I just thank god for my great friends who are helping me through this and for the fact that I even have more than one option. I'm blessed just stressed.
Signs are pointing in all directions and only one seems appealing...but not solid. What if I fail? What if it doesn't work out? I'm a month away from turning 21 but I feel like it should be 40. I'm too young for this stress, can't I just shake a magic ball and that be that?
I just thank god for my great friends who are helping me through this and for the fact that I even have more than one option. I'm blessed just stressed.