I have been thinking..
Wow today has been an eye opener... I went to church now there is nothing different about that at least for me.. but i am usally not payin attention as much as i should since i play with my baby..(jolie, i love her to death.)Anyways so today the preacher was talking about revelation and i paid attention a lot today .... Wat is was is how God doesn't like lukewarm christians.I started to think that is me it made me sad but y lie to myself. There are so many things that i let slide b/c I don't want to stand up for my beliefs. And how i have changed so much in my christian walk I haven't been doin so great. Sometimes I don't pray b/c i blamed God for some stuff. But now I know better y can't i change. Also i have never really been into the bible at least for a long time. All these things make me sad. I also realized in the past i have been happier when I was in the presence of God but now i am just depressed all the time. I think that it was because i let myself go and not let God. I now know to trust in God for my strength... yes i have been told all of this before but you never get it until it is given to you. I mean you have to figure it out for yourself. I know this might sound weird but I just wanted to let my feelings about this out. If you aren't into religion i am sorry but for me it is a big thing. It decides my future and yours even if u don't believe it.These things i have been thinking about ......I hope they change me I don't want to be know as lukewarm anymore. I want to say i am proud of my faith and stand up for it... not to just let it go b/c it is easier to do that. I hope wat i have said has made you think too. Cause life is hard you can't do it on your own don't try it wont work.
i hope that all of u who read this really think about where u stand ....... when all is said and done...... b/c i love all of you