*Wipes off cobwebs*
And where were we? God only knows. Birthday party was awesome, and turning 21 was probably one of the most exciting things that's ever happened to me. I lead a boring life.
I don't know why I'm updating this. I think I feel guilty for abandoning my lj, when I should just delete it. Maybe someone actually reads this? I don't know. In either case, I think I want to start keeping a pen and paper journal. Gives me something to do during chamber lit.
It's hard to think of something to post here. I'm happy. Not that "I'm saying it for the sake of the world but don't really" mean it kind of happy. Like, I have nothing to bitch about. I'm busy but it's all going well...Steve and I are happy, I might actually know what I want to do with my life, my friends are amazing. I don't know if I've ever experienced this before. I'm at a bit of a loss for words.
More amazing is that I've started writing a bit again. I've never been able to write happy before, but who knows where this'll go? Or even how good the stuff is. Anyway, maybe I'm all grown up, now. I don't know when I went from playing at this real life thing to actually being a part of it--I don't know when I stopped consulting my dad any time I made a decision, or at what point I started thinking of other adults as peers. I don't know when I got responsible and figured out my life. It's like I woke up one morning a few weeks ago and was suddenly ready to face the world and at peace with that. I'm a bit confused by the whole process, but not really complaining.
Livejournal is a great time killer, though, so I don't think I'll abandon it just yet. Between this, facebook, and addictinggames.com I should be able to survive the semester with sanity intact. The last two weeks have felt like a day and a year at the same time. In waking life, nothing makes as much sense as in dreams, and sometimes looking back you can't tell the difference between the two. Lines all blur and boundaries fall...but then you realize it doesn't even matter. The moment is here, and it'll leave just that fast, and don't even think about it....because you've got a lot of living to do with this life, baby.
I like that I'm recording my ramblings for posterity. It's most of what goes on in my mind, so why not? I find it interesting, if no one else does.
Now to just go back and clear up those awkward years at the start...future project of my life, I think. Hey hey.
Okay, it's ciggy time, then practice time. Then performance time. Then Star Trek time. Oh how I love my rut.
PS: When I spell checked, it had a problem with: Lj, this'll, livejournal, facebook, addictinggames...but simply accepted the word "ciggy"? Shady business, man.
I don't know why I'm updating this. I think I feel guilty for abandoning my lj, when I should just delete it. Maybe someone actually reads this? I don't know. In either case, I think I want to start keeping a pen and paper journal. Gives me something to do during chamber lit.
It's hard to think of something to post here. I'm happy. Not that "I'm saying it for the sake of the world but don't really" mean it kind of happy. Like, I have nothing to bitch about. I'm busy but it's all going well...Steve and I are happy, I might actually know what I want to do with my life, my friends are amazing. I don't know if I've ever experienced this before. I'm at a bit of a loss for words.
More amazing is that I've started writing a bit again. I've never been able to write happy before, but who knows where this'll go? Or even how good the stuff is. Anyway, maybe I'm all grown up, now. I don't know when I went from playing at this real life thing to actually being a part of it--I don't know when I stopped consulting my dad any time I made a decision, or at what point I started thinking of other adults as peers. I don't know when I got responsible and figured out my life. It's like I woke up one morning a few weeks ago and was suddenly ready to face the world and at peace with that. I'm a bit confused by the whole process, but not really complaining.
Livejournal is a great time killer, though, so I don't think I'll abandon it just yet. Between this, facebook, and addictinggames.com I should be able to survive the semester with sanity intact. The last two weeks have felt like a day and a year at the same time. In waking life, nothing makes as much sense as in dreams, and sometimes looking back you can't tell the difference between the two. Lines all blur and boundaries fall...but then you realize it doesn't even matter. The moment is here, and it'll leave just that fast, and don't even think about it....because you've got a lot of living to do with this life, baby.
I like that I'm recording my ramblings for posterity. It's most of what goes on in my mind, so why not? I find it interesting, if no one else does.
Now to just go back and clear up those awkward years at the start...future project of my life, I think. Hey hey.
Okay, it's ciggy time, then practice time. Then performance time. Then Star Trek time. Oh how I love my rut.
PS: When I spell checked, it had a problem with: Lj, this'll, livejournal, facebook, addictinggames...but simply accepted the word "ciggy"? Shady business, man.