Withdrawls
Yeah im getting withdrawls i think lol me and mike were talkin a little bit buut man oh man its terrible. I cant stop shivering. Im having make-out withdrawls i think to be honest lol i dont wanna say it like that but man oh man its like some sort of drug. Brothers and sisters i realized whats going through the heads of all those people you're like why does she want him back so bad after what he did to her?! or vice versa. Its like this i will never stop loving alecia phan. Period. Ill probobly love someone more some day but even then it wont stop. Sounds like im crazy or obssessed or something but that is not the case in this situation. Its just that i felt soo much for her that even though im trying to move on and i know its probobly the best move sometimes i cant help to think maybe well get back together....just maybe. Kyle says i have a "very good reason" to stop loving her and i suppose i might but i never will and i understand now all the people who are getting beat on or yelled at or anything like that are still in love with whom these people were. We all know what we want but most of the time what we want is the opposite of what we need. To be honest brothers and sisters i dont know if ill ever trust anyone as much as i trusted her again. We both know some things about each other (at least on my end) that no one else in the world knows. But i really wonder if ill be able to tell anyone else these things, day by day i get more paranoid that someone knows something about me that they probobly shouldnt. I trust you tho alecia keep my secrets for i have kept yours.
In other news tomorrow is my last monday night rehersal, im sure most of the seniors will be pumped and excited and such but i know that i will not be, because although it is over i like marching band. I love the people in it. I dont want to leave. I dont care that there is a "bigger better world" that we all move on and i have to when that time comes. I love these people and i dont want to loose contact with them but sometimes i just know that in 7-8 years i will not even have the faintest idea as to what these people are doing. i worry about that quite a bit friends. As the saying goes "be careful what you wish you just might get it." i sure as hell got it, allright.
In other news tomorrow is my last monday night rehersal, im sure most of the seniors will be pumped and excited and such but i know that i will not be, because although it is over i like marching band. I love the people in it. I dont want to leave. I dont care that there is a "bigger better world" that we all move on and i have to when that time comes. I love these people and i dont want to loose contact with them but sometimes i just know that in 7-8 years i will not even have the faintest idea as to what these people are doing. i worry about that quite a bit friends. As the saying goes "be careful what you wish you just might get it." i sure as hell got it, allright.