the last entry was private... but you can read this one if you want.
FUCK... theres an eternity already growing, i will never fill the space.
theres an emptiness inside me even as i look upon your face
you're leaving me to wander but without a compass strong
i'll never understand this death, recovery takes too long
baby, why are you leaving me? where will you go from here?
do you wonder what death will be like? is it something that you fear?
i can't control what fate has thrown and i love you very much
i know your suffering will be gone... but where will i find a crutch?
your helplessness i took for granted.
your love i never knew
the loyalty you kept upon me
the trust i put in you...
but daylight breaks and mountains fall...
we lose the ones we love
you're going to a different place now
so just...dont be scared, baby...
...and... can i give you one last hug?
-me (6-20-05)