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I'm going to talk about my mental health now!
1: I have clinical depression. Specifically, I have dysthymia, which is a chronic, low-grade depression, one I've dealt with for at least nine years. When I'm lucky, I get to experience the wonder and excitement that is the occasional episode of major depression as well.
2: For the last nine or ten months I've been struggling with increasingly frequent flare-ups, each one lasting longer than the one before it. Some weeks are better than others. Some weeks are not.
3: I'm not okay.
4: I will be.
There isn't much else I feel comfortable saying. (My feelings! Let me bottle them up and never share them with you.) I'm thinking a lot and trying to recalibrate my perspective on myself and the world around me, and if it works, I'll let you know my conclusions, and if it doesn't work, then at least I tried. Either way, I'll be fine. :)
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As a follow-up to my earlier good-bye and good-night post--
I spoke with a_white_rain last week and concluded that it would be more accurate to say I am toning down my activities on-line. Though my, er, recent posting habits might suggest otherwise, I feel it's shaping up to be a success! Originally there was a list of Things I Am Not Doing here, but then I realized it would be easier to say I am simply forcing myself to not stress or obsess over anything and everything.
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Secretly, this entire post is just an excuse to use this icon again.
1: I have clinical depression. Specifically, I have dysthymia, which is a chronic, low-grade depression, one I've dealt with for at least nine years. When I'm lucky, I get to experience the wonder and excitement that is the occasional episode of major depression as well.
2: For the last nine or ten months I've been struggling with increasingly frequent flare-ups, each one lasting longer than the one before it. Some weeks are better than others. Some weeks are not.
3: I'm not okay.
4: I will be.
There isn't much else I feel comfortable saying. (My feelings! Let me bottle them up and never share them with you.) I'm thinking a lot and trying to recalibrate my perspective on myself and the world around me, and if it works, I'll let you know my conclusions, and if it doesn't work, then at least I tried. Either way, I'll be fine. :)
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As a follow-up to my earlier good-bye and good-night post--
I spoke with a_white_rain last week and concluded that it would be more accurate to say I am toning down my activities on-line. Though my, er, recent posting habits might suggest otherwise, I feel it's shaping up to be a success! Originally there was a list of Things I Am Not Doing here, but then I realized it would be easier to say I am simply forcing myself to not stress or obsess over anything and everything.
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Secretly, this entire post is just an excuse to use this icon again.