Conclusions.
So I have come to believe that people can't love you fully if you dont first like yourself. Even if you love them you keep getting in your own way, always thinking about them loving you instead of just accepting it (always thinking about why they love you, or doubting they really love you at all, thinking they are too good for you so you push them away).
I feel that I have grown in the last 2 years. I am someone that loves pretty much everyone right off the bat and cares for them even when we don't talk to each other in ages. I try to keep it mostly toned down cause I don't want to freak anyone out, but I really feel strongly about my old friends and boyfriends. I love myself even though sometimes I am not happy with where I am in life, or my physical appearance or I wish I was less quirky, but overall its what makes me ME.
I think my problem is trusting others not to hurt me, so I don't let myself get too close. I always find something that I dont like about someone and then the relationship goes quickly down hill from there, I call it my melting point. I am working on it.
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I feel that I have grown in the last 2 years. I am someone that loves pretty much everyone right off the bat and cares for them even when we don't talk to each other in ages. I try to keep it mostly toned down cause I don't want to freak anyone out, but I really feel strongly about my old friends and boyfriends. I love myself even though sometimes I am not happy with where I am in life, or my physical appearance or I wish I was less quirky, but overall its what makes me ME.
I think my problem is trusting others not to hurt me, so I don't let myself get too close. I always find something that I dont like about someone and then the relationship goes quickly down hill from there, I call it my melting point. I am working on it.
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