Worried
Its weird thing to say but I cant find EJ. Yea he wasnt really close by to begin with but ever since last Friday I've been completely unable to reach him. So far this is the third day and as extreme as it may be I've probably been calling like 10 times a day. Thats more than I call anyone in a month. But I'm completely without success. I remember one day I had called and it rang twice then went to voicemail instead of ringing out. Yea it meant my call was most likely rejected but at the same time it can let me think that he knows I'm looking for him.
Really want to know whats happening...I keep asking myself what happened and why he disappeared all of a sudden. Usually when he disappears like this it means that hes under alot of stress from work but the last time we spoke he had time off and was headed out with friends. Dont want to have negative thoughts but its been so long that I'm beginning to whether I like it or not. He could be hurt, or in the hospital or even dead I have no way of knowing.... I'm getting so anxious that I'm considering asking his friends about what may be going on. Even the harpies that chase him day in and day out. At night I worry the most and even now as I type I feel pretty close to having an anxiety attack because hes still not answering his phone. Feel like I'm surrounded by sound proof walls and no matter how much I pound on them no one hears me.
Hope hes ok...
On the brightside today I had a job interview at Gamestop. I was nervous as fuck. The manager asked me a few questions and I tried to answer them as best as I could and then she made me do a test run where I had to approach customers and attempt to help them. Some kinda shut me out but I persisted without seeming creepy and aggressive. After that she started telling me the things that would be needed of me and said she wants to offer me the job. But before they can accept me I have to take a drug test somewhere in Manhattan. I dont do drugs so the job is mine by default. Even though it was rainging and pouring outside, I walked home with a huge smile on my face that I couldnt gold back at all. This was my first job interview and I managed well and got the job. Yea I did that Vector interview I dont count it because that company is a whore always looking for new minions. In the beginning I wont have that many hours because they already have 4 people working there but I'm chill with that. there should be more business in October to December. Really hoping all this works out well until I can find something more solid.
The first weekend of October is NYAF/Comic Con. I still have to buy my ticket...but oh well. Flowers said that I could be part of his group discount but if he cant get it than I have to pay the full $50 instead of $45. $5 is a huge difference to me but at the same time its not.
Really want to know whats happening...I keep asking myself what happened and why he disappeared all of a sudden. Usually when he disappears like this it means that hes under alot of stress from work but the last time we spoke he had time off and was headed out with friends. Dont want to have negative thoughts but its been so long that I'm beginning to whether I like it or not. He could be hurt, or in the hospital or even dead I have no way of knowing.... I'm getting so anxious that I'm considering asking his friends about what may be going on. Even the harpies that chase him day in and day out. At night I worry the most and even now as I type I feel pretty close to having an anxiety attack because hes still not answering his phone. Feel like I'm surrounded by sound proof walls and no matter how much I pound on them no one hears me.
Hope hes ok...
On the brightside today I had a job interview at Gamestop. I was nervous as fuck. The manager asked me a few questions and I tried to answer them as best as I could and then she made me do a test run where I had to approach customers and attempt to help them. Some kinda shut me out but I persisted without seeming creepy and aggressive. After that she started telling me the things that would be needed of me and said she wants to offer me the job. But before they can accept me I have to take a drug test somewhere in Manhattan. I dont do drugs so the job is mine by default. Even though it was rainging and pouring outside, I walked home with a huge smile on my face that I couldnt gold back at all. This was my first job interview and I managed well and got the job. Yea I did that Vector interview I dont count it because that company is a whore always looking for new minions. In the beginning I wont have that many hours because they already have 4 people working there but I'm chill with that. there should be more business in October to December. Really hoping all this works out well until I can find something more solid.
The first weekend of October is NYAF/Comic Con. I still have to buy my ticket...but oh well. Flowers said that I could be part of his group discount but if he cant get it than I have to pay the full $50 instead of $45. $5 is a huge difference to me but at the same time its not.