Sep 23, 2004 23:13
ok, i just couldn't stand it anymore, so i sent him an email this morning and just said THIS is what is upsetting me. no regard for how he felt or anything. but i did feel alot better after i just said it.
then i get home and i found it alot easier to talk to him. but my frank outburst of communication understandably upset him, and i am sorry about that, and i apologized so much for it, but now we can move forward from this.
so it turns out that he hasn't been doing well, and all this time i think that everything is hunky dory and he's been hiding whatever was going on with him from me.
i just want to wring his fucking neck.
oh well.
but we had a good talk and are back on track.
more than anything i just want him to do well. i mean i know exactly how he feels for i have been there myself.
so i went and saw him today, took him some vitamins and some cal-mag (calcium/magnesium) to help him with runaway thoughts. then i made him go for a walk. a nice long walk, looking at things in the environment, not those things in his head.
i'll go see him tomorrow also.
:)