mostly resolved.
so we talked on monday night.
it was a good thing.
see the end of february, he told me something. something that to me was very shocking and unbelievable. i just couldn't believe it.
see, he had told me that he wasn't smoking pot, but he really was (now the point isn't that he smokes pot, it's the fact that he was lying to me about it).
so the end of february, he told me that he had been smoking pot and had been for a while.
it's like i thought i had known him so well, i just couldn't believe that he had been hiding this from me and i didn't know. i mean i had absolutely no idea. i'm just incredibly gullible and trusting.
so he told me this and i became very upset. we were on chat when he told me this. i told him that i needed to go because i didn't want to say anything in anger that i would regret later.
the next day i sent him an email. basically saying that if he lied to me about the pot smoking, what else had he lied about. i was still really upset, but i thought that i wasn't. by the following monday, i realized that that email was a mistake. so i sent another email apologizing profusely.
thus started the almost 3 months of no talking between us.
i tried sending a few emails about just general things, hoping to get him to respond, but he didn't.
i became convinced that he hated me.
things never really got better for me.
so then finally we started talking again, about general things, but "it" was still there and we needed to talk about it.
so we finally got to the point where we felt we could talk about it. i wanted to do this in person.
so monday night we spent in my truck talking about it.
he told me what had been happening with him, and his decision to smoke pot again. why he stopped and why he started back up.
then i told him what had been happening with me, and how this had affected me. how i felt, how it affected me.
tears from both of us.
it was good because there was more understanding between us of what and how our relationship works, and that the basic friendship that we had is still there.
we covered a lot of things. so it was really good.
i still have to adjust to the fact that he does smoke pot, sometimes every night. but that's what he wants to do.
i guess it's just one of those things i have to figure out how to incorporate into the relationship.
i don't like that he smokes pot, and i wish that he didn't. but he has to decide to change himself, for himself.
it's a point of unreality for me. i already had my drug doing days. and i did it, and i don't understand now why someone would do it.
but it's ok.
the important thing is that our friendship is on the mend.
it was a good thing.
see the end of february, he told me something. something that to me was very shocking and unbelievable. i just couldn't believe it.
see, he had told me that he wasn't smoking pot, but he really was (now the point isn't that he smokes pot, it's the fact that he was lying to me about it).
so the end of february, he told me that he had been smoking pot and had been for a while.
it's like i thought i had known him so well, i just couldn't believe that he had been hiding this from me and i didn't know. i mean i had absolutely no idea. i'm just incredibly gullible and trusting.
so he told me this and i became very upset. we were on chat when he told me this. i told him that i needed to go because i didn't want to say anything in anger that i would regret later.
the next day i sent him an email. basically saying that if he lied to me about the pot smoking, what else had he lied about. i was still really upset, but i thought that i wasn't. by the following monday, i realized that that email was a mistake. so i sent another email apologizing profusely.
thus started the almost 3 months of no talking between us.
i tried sending a few emails about just general things, hoping to get him to respond, but he didn't.
i became convinced that he hated me.
things never really got better for me.
so then finally we started talking again, about general things, but "it" was still there and we needed to talk about it.
so we finally got to the point where we felt we could talk about it. i wanted to do this in person.
so monday night we spent in my truck talking about it.
he told me what had been happening with him, and his decision to smoke pot again. why he stopped and why he started back up.
then i told him what had been happening with me, and how this had affected me. how i felt, how it affected me.
tears from both of us.
it was good because there was more understanding between us of what and how our relationship works, and that the basic friendship that we had is still there.
we covered a lot of things. so it was really good.
i still have to adjust to the fact that he does smoke pot, sometimes every night. but that's what he wants to do.
i guess it's just one of those things i have to figure out how to incorporate into the relationship.
i don't like that he smokes pot, and i wish that he didn't. but he has to decide to change himself, for himself.
it's a point of unreality for me. i already had my drug doing days. and i did it, and i don't understand now why someone would do it.
but it's ok.
the important thing is that our friendship is on the mend.