melancholy
i was driving home today and i was checking my messages. every now and then it asks me if i want to delete old messages and then it plays them. i heard one from my grandma tonight and i just started balling in my car. my heart hurts. i miss her so much and i feel lonely right now. i dont feel like i am really close to any of my friends right now, except my cousin and i never get to see her. i dont even know if anyone except mike knows about anything i have been dealing with lately. i dont think i open myself up to enough people. im afraid of being hurt or rejected, but at the same time i am creating a place where i dont have many people who can be there for me, because i dont let them.