The Fluffernutters Meme

[improbably_true]

fluffernutters meme

what to do:
☆ post a comment
★ others use the magic RNG 1-10 to pick their fluffiness
☆ then fluff it out

fluffy choices:
① Tiny kisses For some reason or another, the person in front of you? Needs all of the kisses. All of them.
② Love confession You feel the butterflies in your stomach, but there's no way you're going to back out

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[impureblood]

[There’s something akin to a ‘wounded puppy’ look on his face after the punch; mainly because at first he has no idea what could prompt the reaction. Not when he’s more than certain the kiss itself was good] What? I…I didn’t do anything. [Then it’s like a light bulb going off above his head. After showing up injured, his promise to always come back to her. Then tonight…and Dean being the only one to show up at Bobby’s]

I didn’t think about how it would look, I swear. [His excuse for not going back had been easy to say; Dean didn’t really raise objections. And Sam didn’t outright lie; just saying that he needed time to unwind from the hunt, work things out. Of course in his brother’s might that means picking up whatever woman from the bar. That’s not him though. Not even close.

Looking down at Abi, he smiles, a real genuine, dimple showing smile. He could only imagine the kind of fear she must have felt earlier but it still doesn’t overpower all those emotions that Sam’s kept bottled up the whole time he was gone]

You look incredible. [And yes, he’s still staring, that’s probably not going to stop for a while. Her reactions? Even when it’s punching him because he did something stupid, just part of the reason that he knew this thing with Abi was right]

I just…wanted you to myself tonight. [It’s more than that. So much more]

[shootsdownstars]

[Abi folds her arms, shifting uncomfortably and avoiding his eyes while he speaks. She knows he didn't think about how it'd look, she knows he'd never scare or upset her on purpose but...but still. But at least here, now, she can finally start letting go of that immediate fear.

It's the dimples that really get her. Honestly, they get her every time. Whenever she's mad or upset at him (or her Dad or his brother because it's not always Sam), those dimples...

She sighs again, brushing her hair out of her eyes and finally looking him in the eye. His compliment makes her smile, and she even does a little twirl for him. They've never had an actual date. She doesn't go out late with her friends when Sam is home, wanting to spend as much time as possible with him before the next hunt. And night time is their time, when Sam can sneak into her room while Dean and Bobby sleep. What Sam knows of her is all sundresses and jeans and shorts and t-shirts. Plaid and chipped nail polish and she's never worn make up for him before. So maybe she wants to show off a little their first real time out.] I thought it was overdue.

[Raising one eyebrow, Abi smirks a little. Did he really just rent a hotel for them to...? Well, she's heard of guys who use sex to unwind after a large adrenaline rush...and he's been gone for so long and before that, the last time he was home they only managed frantic sneaking around, muffling themselves with pillows and skin. So it makes sense.] Well I'm here now.

[impureblood]

[There’s no denying that Sam enjoys the twirl; eyes remaining locked on her, the smile still in place. They’ve never really even discussed dating before. As if somehow bringing up the word makes everything more real; gives them even more to lose. But it would have been fitting. She’s it for him. Sam knew he didn’t want anyone else]

I…definitely should have done this before now. [There’s more of a lightness to his voice than most other times. Because it feels really good to know it’s just her tonight and nothing else. No hunting, no hiding…for all Sam cares, the rest of the world outside of the hotel room just doesn’t exist] Abi…

[He trails off, eyebrows furrowing just a little as he tries to find out how he wants to set all of this in motion. Sam considered having something romantic set up, a huge gesture but…he just wants it to feel real, genuine…not forced at all]

There’s something I want to tell you. That I’ve been holding in for a while…maybe because I was scared, or just…nervous…I don’t know. But I feel like if I don’t say it out loud, I’m going to go crazy [Honestly, he’s not trying to make it sound ominous or anything like that]

[shootsdownstars]

[Here's the thing about Abi:

She always expects the worst. No matter how Sam tries to frame it, how nicely he tries to say it, no matter how deep his dimples are or how light his voice is, Abi. Expects. The worst. It's just in her nature after so much bad.

She doesn't want to be scared right now. She doesn't want to be sad or wonder how exactly Sam is going to end things between them right here and now, but it's where Abi's mind immediately goes when he says There's something I want to tell you.

She swallows down hard on the sinking feeling in her stomach, trying to keep her disappointment and apprehension off of her face and out of her voice when she speaks.] ...Okay. Okay, just...uhm. Go ahead.

[impureblood]

[It’s a combination of things why Sam doesn’t notice the very slight change in her expression; being caught up in everything, the way his heart was thumping rapidly in his chest, or just how nervous he truly is] I’ve never…had this before. Not really. [She knows more about his past than most; talking to her, trusting her…it just comes naturally] Even with Jess, I was too busy trying to pretend I wasn’t freak. I couldn’t tell her the truth.

[Somewhere in the back of his mind he knows bringing up past relationships, even the one that had been the hardest for him to deal with, might not be the best idea, but it’s important to what he’s trying to get across] But you…it’s different. I don’t have to lie or act like I’m some person that I’ll never be. It’s real…[He’s gone back to pacing, not as bad, but standing in front of Abi…he didn’t think he would be able to get through everything he wants to say]

And it’s such much more than that. Every day, every single one that me and Dean are on the road…now all I can think about is you. The way you make me feel…or, how you can get Bobby to laugh even he’s being crabbier than usual.

[The rise and fall of his chest is definitely speeding up; Sam is rambling, he knows it, but he just…he has to get it all out] This whole time I thought all I wanted was to be normal. Have that kind of life you see in movies. But really, that’s not it. I just want you, Abi. That’s it. Everything else, it’s not as important. I think…no, I know that…I love you.

[shootsdownstars]

[...What?

What?

If Sam says anything after 'I love you', Abi doesn't hear it. There's no way she could, not over the pounding of her ears. She's suddenly light-headed and she reaches out, grabbing the edge of a nearby desk and settling herself there.

Sam...loves her.

Sam loves her.

There is literally not one person in the world before now (except maybe her mother but that doesn't count because she doesn't even remember what the woman looks like) that has told Abi that they love her. Not even Bobby. She knows he does, of course. He says it different ways, the same way he does with the boys and she soaks up every second. There's no doubt in her mind about Bobby, even if he's never said it before.

But Sam, he-. She tries to take a breath, but the tears still lingering from before (and the tears that are starting now), make it shaky. She shakes her head.] No. No. No, you don't. You can't.

[It's too much. It's too real now. Because...because now, now if she loses him-...what is she going to do if she loses the only man who's ever loved her? What is she going to do without the only man she's ever loved?]

[impureblood]

[Sam didn’t even realize that he’s holding his breath; waiting for some kind of reaction, any reaction. It’s like for that moment, the world stops spinning, and his entire life is just…hanging in the balance, ready to diverge into two completely different paths.

Then she’s steadying herself on the desk and he can see the tears forming in her eyes. It’s fight or flight reaction; part of him wants to just run the other way, but Sam would never be able to live with doing something like that. Stepping forward, he reaches out to touch her, thumbs gently brushing across Abi’s cheeks]

I do. I want this, with you…you don’t even know how much. [Sam hasn’t said those three words to any other woman that wasn’t named Jess. And that life with her in Stanford, it’s so long ago, he’s a completely different person now] Abi, I love you. That’s the truth...I would never say it otherwise.

[Looking into her eyes, that just reaffirms everything for him] I wouldn’t blame you…if you want something more. Someone not in the life. I just…I had to tell you.

[shootsdownstars]

You-no.

[She lashes out, her own version of fight or flight, hitting her fists weakly against his forearms.] Take it back. Take it back, you-...what am I supposed to do now if you go out and-

[Now, Abi realizes that she's known that she loved Sam. But saying it out loud didn't make it real. And if it wasn't real, it wasn't something she could lose, just like everything else. It's why she's been so content with the radio silence on her and Bobby's relationship. She knows it's there, and no one needs to say it. But now Sam's gone and ruined everything.]

You're just going to get yourself killed now. [She hiccups.] Or you're going to change your mind or Dean's going to talk you into relieving your stress with some stripper or-or...I don't-. I need you, Sam, and now everything's...I can't lose you. I can't.

[impureblood]

[Even as she weakly beats against his arms, Sam only pulls her closer…he gets it, he really does. Being afraid, now having even more to lose. All of those things exist for him. The thing that scares him the most is Abi not knowing what she means to him]

It’s okay. [Slipping his hand under her chin, he tilts her head up, looking into her eyes] Abi, I can promise that nothing’s ever going to happen to me. You know the risks that come with the job. I wish I could, I would do anything to be able to…[He swallows thickly at the lump in his throat, hand now softly stroking her hair, eyebrows still knitted]

What I can promise? Is that I’m not going to change my mind. You’re it for me. It’s…you and me til the wheels fall off. [Maybe not the most romantic thing, but he just wants her to know] No strippers, no anything like that. There’s no one that could compare to you. No-one.

[shootsdownstars]

[Fighting is too hard. She's been fighting her whole goddamn life not to get attached to people then fighting to find her father. And she'd thought, when things finally got settled at Bobby's, that she wouldn't have to anymore.

And then Sam waltzed in, all...dimples and book smarts and it's just-

Fighting is just too hard.

His attempt at romance pulls a watery laugh out of her and she reaches around his arm, wiping at her own tears and slightly running mascara. She's still not sure what she was expecting to happen when she and Sam first started sleeping together. But she thinks that maybe, despite her current fears, that this is the best outcome she could have gotten.]

No one's ever told me they loved me before...

[impureblood]

[Just hearing her say that makes his heart ache. The kind of person Abi is, he feels like he knows her better...she deserves a lot more than Sam being the only person to have said that to her] First time for everything...[He follows the words with a small smile. It might have started out with a strong physical attraction and some other genuine emotions mixed in, but it's grown since then. The sex was amazing but even then...he couldnt have imagined it would turn into this ]

I just...didn't want to keep holding it in. Me and you, that's all I want.

[Letting his hand drop back to his side, Sam stays in close...the most difficult part might be over, but the night was just beginning, at least for them. He wants to make sure its not the kind that would be forgotten. Abi has given him even more than she realized. As cliche as it was, at least Sam knows theres a light at the end of the tunnel now]

[shootsdownstars]

That's what I want too. [She's scared. She's terrified, but it's true. Whenever Sam's home, she hovers close during the day, at least close enough that his voice carries when he speaks. It's the most she can get sometimes, with Bobby and Dean fond of pulling all nighters and restricting how much time they can steal in the dark. And when they can steal a few hours, a few minutes, even a day or two (very rarely), she soaks up every second, every touch and every little laugh and she revels in it.

And when he's gone, she clings to those moments and her cell phone, jumping every time it buzzes and hoping it's him, just a simple I'm fine to ease her nerves.]

I love you, Sam. [It takes a minute to force it out, and with it comes a new rush of tears.]

[impureblood]

[Hearing those three words, its enough to make his lips stretch into a broad grin, expressive eyes still looking down at her. Things don't have to be perfect; they don't have to be the textbook definition of normal...its something that Sam has struggled a long time witb, only through Abi was he beginning to see that it didnt matter. Having her, whether its just through phone calls and texts on the road, or stolen moments when he's able to come back...that's what's important, above anything else]

Good, because I don't think anyone else will ever be able to put up with me. [He's not making light of the situatuon; if anything, it's a partial truth. That Abi accepts everything that comes with him is almost a small miracle. Gently brushing her tears away, he's already reaching for her hand, somehow wishing he could freeze time] The rest of the night...anything you want. Maybe tomorrow, too...if I can keep Dean from trying to throw is into another case already.

[shootsdownstars]

[He gets a weak punch to the gut for that. Not enough to even knock the air out of him and she's laughing when she reaches up to brush her own tears away. He's not allowed to tease her right now.]

I didn't...I don't really know what else to do. [There's another laugh, and she rubs her hands together, glancing around the room.] We've never actually been out before, or really had this kind of time.

And Dean's not taking you anywhere.

[impureblood]

[That they have never been on anything remotely resembling a date has never really struck Sam until then. It's not that much of a surprise , considering that time is never something that they have in abundance. Not with his whereabouts always being questioned if he disappears for longee than his brother liked; or Sam not wanting Bobby to figure it out...even though now, more than ever, he knows the 'talk' is going to happen soon]

I should have bought something to make dinner for us. I guedd i was a little...nervous. [Abi doesn't get much of a warning; one second she's standing there, wiping her tears away, and the next Sam is lifting her up, cradling her in his arms as if she were absolutely weightless]

We',ll get breakfast in the morning....go on a real date. And you're right, Dean isn't going to ruin it.

[shootsdownstars]

[The fact that Abi gets no warning is probably not good for the neighbors because she shrieks, flailing a little before catching on to what's happening and wrapping her arms around Sam's neck.] If you drop me, I swear to God, I'm taking back everything I said! [She laughs, kicking her legs a little.] If you're hungry, we can order room service.

I like that idea. Just nowhere fancy, all I brought was a sundress. [The dress she's wearing now is one of maybe 3 formal dresses she owns and she was not going to try and stuff one of those into her purse.]

So that covers tomorrow...what about tonight?