..hmm a thoughtful moment
I was sitting here thinking about how my journal is always so happy.. everythings all good.. or I make it seem like it is.. but then.. when I think about it.. everything is NOT all good.. and sometimes I think I only write about the good stuff because I don't want to remember the bad things.. SO I guess it's time that I.. confess a bit of the not-so-great things in my life right now...
My grandmother is really depressed.. and I want to say my familys perfect .. but its FAR from it. I mean look at it.. my grandmothers depressed, my parents are divorced.. my brother has MAJOR video game obsession problems.. and.. we're no piece of pie. Anyways.. She has mood swings. One minute she'll be okay, and then the next she's depressed and unhappy. We try to help, but when we do we never know what kind of reaction we're going to get. It's frustrating, and it's ... whild knowing that maybe your grandmother doesn't want to have anything to do with you.. I KNOW she loves us, and I know she appriciates that we're here for her.. but.. all at the same time I think she wants some peace. Like today ... she called my mom saying how "we hated her" and how "we don't care.." when we DO .. we REALLY do.. and then a couple hours later she called and said "Get the hell out of my life." and hung up. I mean, I hate to admit it.. but theres something WRONG with her.. and I dont know what to do to help.. im only 13.. im not a therapist.. but I want everything to be okay. I want her to be happy.. but with her being a single woman.. who lives in Covington.. the city she CANT stand... makes her unhappy.. and she refuses to "find anyone.." .. I guess it's just hard for me to admit that.. my lifes not perfect.. and there IS something wrong..
.. okay now im not in a GREAT mood.
My grandmother is really depressed.. and I want to say my familys perfect .. but its FAR from it. I mean look at it.. my grandmothers depressed, my parents are divorced.. my brother has MAJOR video game obsession problems.. and.. we're no piece of pie. Anyways.. She has mood swings. One minute she'll be okay, and then the next she's depressed and unhappy. We try to help, but when we do we never know what kind of reaction we're going to get. It's frustrating, and it's ... whild knowing that maybe your grandmother doesn't want to have anything to do with you.. I KNOW she loves us, and I know she appriciates that we're here for her.. but.. all at the same time I think she wants some peace. Like today ... she called my mom saying how "we hated her" and how "we don't care.." when we DO .. we REALLY do.. and then a couple hours later she called and said "Get the hell out of my life." and hung up. I mean, I hate to admit it.. but theres something WRONG with her.. and I dont know what to do to help.. im only 13.. im not a therapist.. but I want everything to be okay. I want her to be happy.. but with her being a single woman.. who lives in Covington.. the city she CANT stand... makes her unhappy.. and she refuses to "find anyone.." .. I guess it's just hard for me to admit that.. my lifes not perfect.. and there IS something wrong..
.. okay now im not in a GREAT mood.