don't know how to go back.
No one reads this and that's okay, I'm just trying to figure some shit out. I figure writing it out can't hurt, so...here's the deal, my best friend (at the time) and I were supposed to get an apartment together, instead she bailed on me after living in my spare bedroom rent free for almost 2 weeks! I fucking cleaned up after this cunt and her cat, bought all the groceries, that she had no trouble eating, and even pulled some strings to get her a job at the bakery where I work! Now I'm left living in my shitty apartment, friendless and having to see this bitch everyday at work, I don't know what to do. On one hand I love her and miss her, on the other I don't need or want her crazy drama! I just want to erase the past month and get back to how things were, instead I'm uncomfortable at work, I choose to skip social functions so that its not akward since we have the same group of friends, and even go so far as to break long standing friend dates so that innocent friend doesn't feel like they have to choose sides. Unfortunatly all that does is make me feel like an outcast, like someone not worthy of spending time with those I've grown to love. I don't know, the whole thing leaves me feeling incredibly depressed and alone.