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I haven't really updated for real in a while, and I'm bored and not tired yet, so I suppose I'll update now. I haven't really been doing much of anything lately, mostly hanging around with Ryan. Running back and forth from his Mom's house, who by the way is doing much better. I'm going to the beach tomorrow with Ryan and Alyssa, and this weekend I'm going to New Hampshire to go to the Nascar race with Ryan. Yay for staying overnight with him in another state. Boo for 100$ for the ticket.
Maybe I won't update for real. I have nothing more to say than I did a week ago.
Sometimes I wish I could just...start over. Not with everything, just people. Take all the people that have since forgotten me (if not, since cut off communication,) and just erase them and the memories I have of them, as well as the memories they have of me. Things aren't that easy, but I still wish I could try. Most of you aren't worth saving anymore, I've given up, so to speak. The few people I talk to still are more valuable to me than most other people are combined. It makes me so frustrated to think these people were my "best friends" who I could "trust with my life," when all it took was me to vent for five minutes, and they went and told everyone and I had a crew of people mad at me for something I said in a fit of anger. All it took was one wrong word, and I'm sorry didn't cut it, even for the smallest things. If you aren't going to ever speak to me again, call me, make plans, even talk online, please don't wonder why when I brush you off in the future. You never meant that much anyway.
Goodbye to you, goodbye to you. You're taking up my time. I'm about to see a million things I thought I'd never see before and I, I'm about to do all the things I dreamed of and...I don't even miss you at all.
The times were great, the fun was had, the secrets were shared and told to everyone. I wouldn't change it for the world, but I'm saying goodbye.
I wouldn't trust you with my new secret if your lives depended on it.
Maybe I won't update for real. I have nothing more to say than I did a week ago.
Sometimes I wish I could just...start over. Not with everything, just people. Take all the people that have since forgotten me (if not, since cut off communication,) and just erase them and the memories I have of them, as well as the memories they have of me. Things aren't that easy, but I still wish I could try. Most of you aren't worth saving anymore, I've given up, so to speak. The few people I talk to still are more valuable to me than most other people are combined. It makes me so frustrated to think these people were my "best friends" who I could "trust with my life," when all it took was me to vent for five minutes, and they went and told everyone and I had a crew of people mad at me for something I said in a fit of anger. All it took was one wrong word, and I'm sorry didn't cut it, even for the smallest things. If you aren't going to ever speak to me again, call me, make plans, even talk online, please don't wonder why when I brush you off in the future. You never meant that much anyway.
Goodbye to you, goodbye to you. You're taking up my time. I'm about to see a million things I thought I'd never see before and I, I'm about to do all the things I dreamed of and...I don't even miss you at all.
The times were great, the fun was had, the secrets were shared and told to everyone. I wouldn't change it for the world, but I'm saying goodbye.
I wouldn't trust you with my new secret if your lives depended on it.