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tears drowned my eyes when i finished reading this.
the opponent
as i stare at the screen trying to draw out the words that have been swirling in my belly i am overwhelmed with a feeling i now title my opponent. it is the side of myself i dislike. it is a pool of nay saying negative energy that swirls inside of all of us i assume. it seems strange to be at war with ones self but it is very possible even common some would say. my opponent says nothing matters and that ultimately things like love and happiness and peace etc etc are just abstract concepts that exist in a temporary void inside our own narrow perceptions of reality. if that is the truth(yet another one of those concepts) then it is difficult at times to move forward. it is difficult to place value on anything... to set priorities and goals. i have named this dark ocean my opponent because in the depths of my soul, body and mind i want to defeat it. i want to move forward. i want to believe that it is in fact NOT representative of the truth. that there are things worth believing in and working for... that love and peace and happiness are things that can exist for more than just a moment in our minds... and so the war continues. i hope one day that it will end. in the mean time, thank you for caring. thank you for always being here when i need you most. i look forward to the rest of these dates because every night you make us remember that at the very least we are not alone.
-colin from circa survive
the opponent
as i stare at the screen trying to draw out the words that have been swirling in my belly i am overwhelmed with a feeling i now title my opponent. it is the side of myself i dislike. it is a pool of nay saying negative energy that swirls inside of all of us i assume. it seems strange to be at war with ones self but it is very possible even common some would say. my opponent says nothing matters and that ultimately things like love and happiness and peace etc etc are just abstract concepts that exist in a temporary void inside our own narrow perceptions of reality. if that is the truth(yet another one of those concepts) then it is difficult at times to move forward. it is difficult to place value on anything... to set priorities and goals. i have named this dark ocean my opponent because in the depths of my soul, body and mind i want to defeat it. i want to move forward. i want to believe that it is in fact NOT representative of the truth. that there are things worth believing in and working for... that love and peace and happiness are things that can exist for more than just a moment in our minds... and so the war continues. i hope one day that it will end. in the mean time, thank you for caring. thank you for always being here when i need you most. i look forward to the rest of these dates because every night you make us remember that at the very least we are not alone.
-colin from circa survive