bleary eyed....
My summer's been pretty damn boring to tell you the truth. Nothing really great happened. The whole thing is made up of mostly bad events, but, hey what are you gonna do. Just trying to live another day, keeping my head above water.
Had my first encounter with He Who Shall Not Be Named, since the whole ordeal occured. No words were spoken. But I guess it could've been worse. "Baby steps" she said, "one step forward and two steps back.." Yeah right. One step to the side and we can stop doing this silly little dance. That was an okay day I guess. It was nice to see my boys again... even though half of my group is MIA. Oh well, they can go fuck themselves for all I care, neither of them are on my happy list right now. Actually, I don't think anyone's on my happy list right now...Except maybe my boyfriend.. and sometimes I even wonder about him. Brian and Mike are back though, so that should eliminate some boredom. But Matt keeps saying that, he "worries" about me. I think he thinks I'm a totally fucked up mental case. Oh well, he's not the first. I have living in this hellhole to thank for that.
I wish I had an awesome book to read. Just so I could plop myself in the middle of somebody elses life instead of dealing with my own.
47 days til the pain goes away..