today, i feel like crying.
This whole place is going to shit and so is everyone in it. I am SO fucking tired of everyone. Seriously, I can't stand people here anymore. People are so fucking ignorant. All they care about is themselves. Act like they don't even know you until they need something. And me, the retard that I am goes all out and helps everyone with all their shit. And then once they get what they want they're out. My "best friends", are becoming completely annoying to me and I would love nothing more than to punch each and every one of them in the face. I have done so much shit for these girls I am close with, and when I need them they're "too busy" or "don't feel like dealing with me being depressed".. I know it's hard to be around me sometimes and I definately understand my moodiness can be annoying. But please, deal with it. I deal with all your fucking problems and obnoxious tendancies without complaint. Give me a fucking break. I'm down to seven friends now, finally the ones who made the cut. Becca, Adam, Dan, and Katelin.. and then Court and Heather... and my boyfriend. Alex and Amanda and Jacky are cool too but I don't think I'd trust them. I am so tired of everyone else though... I can't take it anymore. I'm fed up with school and all the fucking homework and tests and quizes and staying after. Shove it up your ass fuckin teachers I hate you all. I've been up since 3 oclock this morning and had a horrible day. Hurting my hand in volleyball, failing spanish, math and whatever else, oh and finding that some faggot is telling people I'm cheating on my boyfriend?? Umm, hello?? Are you kidding me? He is the only good thing in my life at this point. I would never fuckin do that I love him with every fucking fragment of my being. So shut the fuck up people cause you don't know what the hell you're talking about...I miss him so fucking much it's tearing me up. I can't even take it anymore. What are you supposed to do when you don't feel content...ANYWHERE...I apologize for this spurt of anger, but I had to get it out of me somehow before i fucking explode.... I just wanna cry. As usual, right? Yeah fuck you.
they watched her drink her pain away, a little at a time..
but she never could get drunk enough.... to get him off her mind...