So, I'm making some changes...
Eating mushrooms always leads me to a different understanding of my life. Eating mushrooms three times in two weeks deffinatly had a major impact on me. I'm making some changes. Bridget can take some credit for this too I guess, cause she's been the one I've been talking to about everything.
Anyway, I'm gonna be a good student this semester, no ifs, ands or buts. I have to remember, every time I feel the urge to stay out all night and sleep through class, that if I haul ass this semester, in the fall I'll be away at school, doing my own thing, livin it up and havin a blast. The truth of the matter is that I don't enjoy what I do when I go out as much as I loath the look of disapointment on my moms/professors faces when I get D's and F's on things that I can do blindfolded. I'm too smart to keep fucking myself over to spend some time with a dude or get stoned.
I also, on a dare, have quit smoking pot for two weeks. If things are easier, and I feel better not smoking, I'm not going to start again. I've had a cough for a while, and I've been feeling stupid. I think I'm a little out of it from the shrooms too. I don't normally do drugs, just smoke pot, so when I do somthing like shrooms multiple times, it kinda changes my perception for a little while I think. I dunno.
I noticed that I deleated the post I worte on NewYears, and no one probably read it anyway, due to the lack of spaces. Basiclly, on New Years Eve, my little sister told me she's pregnant. She's now engaged, and getting married to Mike Shepard on April 24th, a month before high school graduation. But she's happy, and he's happy, so I'm happy. It's still really weird.
Well, I'm sure I can think of more to say, but I'm gonna stop now, cause I'm at Matt's house using his computer and not even talking to him and Gerry, and thats kinda rude. But hey, I had to update somewhere with a spacebar, right???
Anyway, I'm gonna be a good student this semester, no ifs, ands or buts. I have to remember, every time I feel the urge to stay out all night and sleep through class, that if I haul ass this semester, in the fall I'll be away at school, doing my own thing, livin it up and havin a blast. The truth of the matter is that I don't enjoy what I do when I go out as much as I loath the look of disapointment on my moms/professors faces when I get D's and F's on things that I can do blindfolded. I'm too smart to keep fucking myself over to spend some time with a dude or get stoned.
I also, on a dare, have quit smoking pot for two weeks. If things are easier, and I feel better not smoking, I'm not going to start again. I've had a cough for a while, and I've been feeling stupid. I think I'm a little out of it from the shrooms too. I don't normally do drugs, just smoke pot, so when I do somthing like shrooms multiple times, it kinda changes my perception for a little while I think. I dunno.
I noticed that I deleated the post I worte on NewYears, and no one probably read it anyway, due to the lack of spaces. Basiclly, on New Years Eve, my little sister told me she's pregnant. She's now engaged, and getting married to Mike Shepard on April 24th, a month before high school graduation. But she's happy, and he's happy, so I'm happy. It's still really weird.
Well, I'm sure I can think of more to say, but I'm gonna stop now, cause I'm at Matt's house using his computer and not even talking to him and Gerry, and thats kinda rude. But hey, I had to update somewhere with a spacebar, right???