random thoughts
so i really don't have anyone to give me advice or help me through things anymore, cuz everyone is always busy so im just going to vent everything here and maybe it will make me feel better? who knows. I know I shouldn't get upset over sum of the things I am. Relationships.. Lets see they suck for me. I don't know why, maybe sumthing i do who knows. They never work out. Ask anyone. I always get hurt in the end. Never have I been in a realationship where afterwards I can say I hate that guy and mean it. I always still care and continue to care. I just wish I could once be the one hurting someone so they can see wut I have been through time and time again. I was doing so good not worryin about relationships, but than I see my friends in their relationships and how happy most of them are and everything. Why can't I have that? and than i tortue myself by reading old things. Why I do that to myself is beyond me, but I continue to do it all the time.
Than theres the feeling of having no friends left in the world. I know I have friends, but I feel like I don't have any left to talk to, to tell my secerts to, to run to when i need advice. I feel so alone and its not a good feeling. I don't know how to get rid of this feeling, but I hate it. I don't want to be alone. I want to be able to talk to my friends and tell them things, but I feel like right now no one wants to hear anything. I feel like I'll just bother them by telling them wuts goin on with me.
the never ending family drama.. i don't even feel like beginning to get into that. cuz i would be sitting here all damn fucking day just typing it and whoever reads this probably wouldn't get it anyway so I would just be wasting my time i guess.
I can't deal with all this shit anymore. I'm outta fucking high school and I still have the "he said" "she said" bullshit stuff. I'm fucking sick of it. I just want to get the fuck away from it all forever!! good fucking bye!
Than theres the feeling of having no friends left in the world. I know I have friends, but I feel like I don't have any left to talk to, to tell my secerts to, to run to when i need advice. I feel so alone and its not a good feeling. I don't know how to get rid of this feeling, but I hate it. I don't want to be alone. I want to be able to talk to my friends and tell them things, but I feel like right now no one wants to hear anything. I feel like I'll just bother them by telling them wuts goin on with me.
the never ending family drama.. i don't even feel like beginning to get into that. cuz i would be sitting here all damn fucking day just typing it and whoever reads this probably wouldn't get it anyway so I would just be wasting my time i guess.
I can't deal with all this shit anymore. I'm outta fucking high school and I still have the "he said" "she said" bullshit stuff. I'm fucking sick of it. I just want to get the fuck away from it all forever!! good fucking bye!