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meeeeh
it could not get any colder in this house
like the atmosphere I mean, this whole schoolies thing is getting blown out of proportion, like i'm over it, but they aren't, and I ain't cracking and apoligizing for abusing my mother the other day, but they've gone all what they think is hardcore, by like mum cutting off the tuckshop credit and making me paying it all back, taking the television out of my room and taking away my discman and headphones and i swear to god my dad is slowly taking my cds one by one, like seriosuly, they all go missing and never come back
its crazy
meeeehhh, i wish i could drive soooo much, like drive away, it would be soo convenient cos whenever i'm bored i could just go for a drive, but like i can't
yesterday arvo cords and ames and I went for a drive, it was rad, we went down the the beach and it was nice, like i don't like the beach but it actually nice to be down there yesterday, with the water going and the breeze, it was like serene, it wasn't all hot and tog-like and sunscreen paranoid, it was like, nice arvo time
watched ames swoon over trent for awhile
cruising is good
i just wish i had something to do now, like every saturday it the same, go to work every sunday go to work, like , its such a big blot on my horizon, i wonder what it would be like to have my saturdays back, how good it would be to wake up late and procrastinate, it would be rad, i have been working for like 4 yrs so i've forgotten what saturday mornings are like, how good they can be, cos i only ever have them when i'm like sick so i don't do anything or when i've changed shifts for a party and usually then I'm hungover so its not the same
ahhh well, next year it will be all different,or even when we finish school it will be different, it is soo not long till we do, im so scared but excited at the same time, i don't wanna go to brisbane, cos like, i really don't like it there, brisbane is sooo ugly, like when i think about it, sunshine is like, pretty nice, its just boring, thats all
geeez, i have so many things i have to do like this month
i hafta: fill out my qtac, go to the doctor, book driving lessons and my test, organize where i'm going for m-one
mmmmm m-one, i'm sooo soooo glad it is soon, i cannot wait to see garbage and the goo goo dolls, it will be so rad
went up to bud this afternoon with libby learoyd, we just bummed around as usual
i quite like libby, like i know everyone has all these pre conceived notions of her, like, that she's blunt and rude and people still reckon shes depressed but its not like that, you've got to know her and get past that, shes just got like an odd sense of humour and can be blase. i just like how that there is no bullshit when i'm talking to he,r like she doesn't say things just for the sake of it she doesn't act fake, and she'll tell you how she sees it, like she will tell me diretly if i'm being a dick, which is good. i dunno, i like talking to her i don't ever feel selfconsious which is good. i just think that is some ways she has a good outlook on life cos she is an individual and doesn't tend to follow the crowd or get self consious, geeez i've devoted a whole paragraph to her, woah, yeee i guess its cos i think that everyone has the wrong impression, i dunno,
i just think bout the people who i wanan stay in contact with when we leave school, thing is with school, like people your friends with and talk to on a daily basis but you don't like, interact outside of school, like school is the way you can interact with them but like if your not there, its doesn't seem much point contacting them, like, for example, jamie, like i have the bestes convos with her and like jokes and stuff and i think shes really nice and happy but its not like we ring each other up on the weeekdn, so like, when i leave school, its not like we re going to be bumping into to each other all the time and you can't just ring up every person you know, keeping in contact is hard, like i find it hard to remeber to ring people all the time
in fact i'm not a phone person, i just don;t like the phone, i'll only use it to like, say "yeee see ya then then ok" yeeeee
meh just stuff flying round my head that doens't seem important really
but then i guess that is what a lj is for eh, its to like clear all the stuff outta your head so its all,......emptylike?
with cords the other day, yesterday infact, i felt sad, cos like, i was rather nasty to her the other day on msn, but i did feel liek for ages ther she was blocking me out and it was as if we weren't even communicating and so why are we even calling ourselves the secret seven if we all don't seem to care, but then i realised, yesterday, its jsut that cordy and I never get to talk, thats why, like, only subject i have with her is drama, and its like with eeryone else, and at lunchtimes and recess we are with everyone else, so what kind of talking goes on then really, like cordy and i never singually chat so maybe, of late, it that we jsut don't really know whats going on in each others lifes and like, at the moment everyone is so busy and stuff, it can' be helped, but like i felt sad, cos i remeembered all the good times and memories we had and it seemed like so distant from now, so far away and i don't want it to end up that we aren't relating to each other, thats not how i want it to be be, but i don't know what to do, like i just wanted to say to her, hey, you know, i really do like having you as my friend but i dunno, its seemed odd???? i dunno, i think i'm justgoing down memory lane to like yr 8 and 9 and 10 when it was all happy and.... i guess thiungs change thoug, people grow up
i think thats true, cos i feel like, right now, its ike my life is finally in focus, as in the pictures straight, cos i look bakc and i think about what i thought eveyrhting was like back then and its as if i only know the truth about the world now, its as if i only have a real outlook on lfie now, like all the other years are blurry and i seem to only be now understnading stuff, except like kinda not, cos not everything does make sense, but, i dunno.... i'm tripping myself out, i know what i'm thinking but i don't know how to express it
it was soo hot today, it was such a heatwave, like my friedn winter is gone, that is sad, soo soo sad, i love winter, and rain, rain when you are all snuggled up in bed
winter you can cover you shape up, your horrible horribel fat shape
but summer, you have to show it to the world
meehhh
i have nothing left to say
cept i wanna wtch my video cept mum and dad are hogging the tv, watching ol dusty springfiled, this movie i'm watching is rad, this chick, shes so like, depressed but its good cos you know she is gonna feel better soon and it will be good cos she won't be blase anymore and that guy will show everyone that they were wrong, ti really quite invigoarting, almost brings a tear to my eye
dords i saw cords hair today and i didn't see a fringe?
DORDS:!!! you are smoking alone on your verandah again!! smoking kills and you end up with raggy elephant man skin like mrs thomas. do you want to end up looking like a 50yrd when your twenty? do you, do you? rember this very important slogan: CHOOSE CIGARETTES AND YOU'LL GO UP IN SMOKE! meheheh amusing isn't it
it could not get any colder in this house
like the atmosphere I mean, this whole schoolies thing is getting blown out of proportion, like i'm over it, but they aren't, and I ain't cracking and apoligizing for abusing my mother the other day, but they've gone all what they think is hardcore, by like mum cutting off the tuckshop credit and making me paying it all back, taking the television out of my room and taking away my discman and headphones and i swear to god my dad is slowly taking my cds one by one, like seriosuly, they all go missing and never come back
its crazy
meeeehhh, i wish i could drive soooo much, like drive away, it would be soo convenient cos whenever i'm bored i could just go for a drive, but like i can't
yesterday arvo cords and ames and I went for a drive, it was rad, we went down the the beach and it was nice, like i don't like the beach but it actually nice to be down there yesterday, with the water going and the breeze, it was like serene, it wasn't all hot and tog-like and sunscreen paranoid, it was like, nice arvo time
watched ames swoon over trent for awhile
cruising is good
i just wish i had something to do now, like every saturday it the same, go to work every sunday go to work, like , its such a big blot on my horizon, i wonder what it would be like to have my saturdays back, how good it would be to wake up late and procrastinate, it would be rad, i have been working for like 4 yrs so i've forgotten what saturday mornings are like, how good they can be, cos i only ever have them when i'm like sick so i don't do anything or when i've changed shifts for a party and usually then I'm hungover so its not the same
ahhh well, next year it will be all different,or even when we finish school it will be different, it is soo not long till we do, im so scared but excited at the same time, i don't wanna go to brisbane, cos like, i really don't like it there, brisbane is sooo ugly, like when i think about it, sunshine is like, pretty nice, its just boring, thats all
geeez, i have so many things i have to do like this month
i hafta: fill out my qtac, go to the doctor, book driving lessons and my test, organize where i'm going for m-one
mmmmm m-one, i'm sooo soooo glad it is soon, i cannot wait to see garbage and the goo goo dolls, it will be so rad
went up to bud this afternoon with libby learoyd, we just bummed around as usual
i quite like libby, like i know everyone has all these pre conceived notions of her, like, that she's blunt and rude and people still reckon shes depressed but its not like that, you've got to know her and get past that, shes just got like an odd sense of humour and can be blase. i just like how that there is no bullshit when i'm talking to he,r like she doesn't say things just for the sake of it she doesn't act fake, and she'll tell you how she sees it, like she will tell me diretly if i'm being a dick, which is good. i dunno, i like talking to her i don't ever feel selfconsious which is good. i just think that is some ways she has a good outlook on life cos she is an individual and doesn't tend to follow the crowd or get self consious, geeez i've devoted a whole paragraph to her, woah, yeee i guess its cos i think that everyone has the wrong impression, i dunno,
i just think bout the people who i wanan stay in contact with when we leave school, thing is with school, like people your friends with and talk to on a daily basis but you don't like, interact outside of school, like school is the way you can interact with them but like if your not there, its doesn't seem much point contacting them, like, for example, jamie, like i have the bestes convos with her and like jokes and stuff and i think shes really nice and happy but its not like we ring each other up on the weeekdn, so like, when i leave school, its not like we re going to be bumping into to each other all the time and you can't just ring up every person you know, keeping in contact is hard, like i find it hard to remeber to ring people all the time
in fact i'm not a phone person, i just don;t like the phone, i'll only use it to like, say "yeee see ya then then ok" yeeeee
meh just stuff flying round my head that doens't seem important really
but then i guess that is what a lj is for eh, its to like clear all the stuff outta your head so its all,......emptylike?
with cords the other day, yesterday infact, i felt sad, cos like, i was rather nasty to her the other day on msn, but i did feel liek for ages ther she was blocking me out and it was as if we weren't even communicating and so why are we even calling ourselves the secret seven if we all don't seem to care, but then i realised, yesterday, its jsut that cordy and I never get to talk, thats why, like, only subject i have with her is drama, and its like with eeryone else, and at lunchtimes and recess we are with everyone else, so what kind of talking goes on then really, like cordy and i never singually chat so maybe, of late, it that we jsut don't really know whats going on in each others lifes and like, at the moment everyone is so busy and stuff, it can' be helped, but like i felt sad, cos i remeembered all the good times and memories we had and it seemed like so distant from now, so far away and i don't want it to end up that we aren't relating to each other, thats not how i want it to be be, but i don't know what to do, like i just wanted to say to her, hey, you know, i really do like having you as my friend but i dunno, its seemed odd???? i dunno, i think i'm justgoing down memory lane to like yr 8 and 9 and 10 when it was all happy and.... i guess thiungs change thoug, people grow up
i think thats true, cos i feel like, right now, its ike my life is finally in focus, as in the pictures straight, cos i look bakc and i think about what i thought eveyrhting was like back then and its as if i only know the truth about the world now, its as if i only have a real outlook on lfie now, like all the other years are blurry and i seem to only be now understnading stuff, except like kinda not, cos not everything does make sense, but, i dunno.... i'm tripping myself out, i know what i'm thinking but i don't know how to express it
it was soo hot today, it was such a heatwave, like my friedn winter is gone, that is sad, soo soo sad, i love winter, and rain, rain when you are all snuggled up in bed
winter you can cover you shape up, your horrible horribel fat shape
but summer, you have to show it to the world
meehhh
i have nothing left to say
cept i wanna wtch my video cept mum and dad are hogging the tv, watching ol dusty springfiled, this movie i'm watching is rad, this chick, shes so like, depressed but its good cos you know she is gonna feel better soon and it will be good cos she won't be blase anymore and that guy will show everyone that they were wrong, ti really quite invigoarting, almost brings a tear to my eye
dords i saw cords hair today and i didn't see a fringe?
DORDS:!!! you are smoking alone on your verandah again!! smoking kills and you end up with raggy elephant man skin like mrs thomas. do you want to end up looking like a 50yrd when your twenty? do you, do you? rember this very important slogan: CHOOSE CIGARETTES AND YOU'LL GO UP IN SMOKE! meheheh amusing isn't it