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IM SICK OF BEING ON THIS GUILT TRIP!!! ONCE IM RELAXED AND HAVE FORGOT ABOUT IT SOMEONE JUST HAS TO BRING IT UP!! IM SICK OF IT!!!
NO ONE LISTENS TO ME UNLESS I SCREW UP. THEN THEY GET MAD AND BLAME ME FOR IT. WONDERFUL WAY ISNT IT?
I TRY TO LIVE WITH OUT REGRETS BUT ITS OH SO HELPFUL WHEN YOU SEE PEOPLE AND THEY LIKE REMIND ME OF WHAT A SCREW UP I AM. ITS A GREAT FEELING.
I TRY TO PUT MYSELF OUT TO HELP BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO RETURN IT WHEN I NEED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON. WHEN I DO THEY ALL CALL ME A COMPLAINER AND CRAP LIKE THAT. MAYBE ITS TRUE BUT IM SICK OF FEELING ALONE.
I HAVE SCREWED UP SO MANY TIMES. AND I WISH I COULD TAKE IT ALL BACK BUT I CANT! BECAUSE WHATS DONT IS DONE AND FOR THOSE WHO CANT EXCEPT THAT, ITS PRETTY SHALLOW.
IM SORRY THAT I HAVE TO LIVE MY OWN LIFE? PEOPLE KEEP TELLING ME WHAT THEY WANT ME TO DO AND NOT EVEN CONSIDERING THE REAL REASONS FOR MY ACTIONS.
IM SORRY I QUIT SWIMMING? I WANT TO TRY OTHER THINGS? IS THAT A CRIME?
i just had to get that off my chest. thanks for reading?