...where do i go from here?...
Last night was like any other night at Anthonys...Full
of random people, excessive amounts of Brugal, and complete emotional
instability. A certain someone was brought up (thanks chris lol), and
normally my brain would go into thinking mode and just spend the rest
of the night filled with thoughs regarding the past, present, and
future....but this time, for some reason my brain decided to just shut
off. I didnt want to think about it, I didn't want to analyze. Believe
me when i say that i'm done...i really am. I'm tired of sitting there
and hearing people say "don't worry, it gets better."...No, i do worry,
and it doesnt get better! Not for me at least.
*My grandmother is really sick...I dont know what i'd do without her.
*I'm seriously considering going to school in New York next Spring...I have to do something.
*I don't want to feel like this anymore.
This is where I say I've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
and I don't believe that I'm getting any better...
-dashboard-
...when will it get better.
*My grandmother is really sick...I dont know what i'd do without her.
*I'm seriously considering going to school in New York next Spring...I have to do something.
*I don't want to feel like this anymore.
This is where I say I've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
A walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
and I don't believe that I'm getting any better...
-dashboard-
...when will it get better.