...random thoughts...
Hello readers. So i came home today and realized that my
brain works in mysterious ways. I'm a thinker. All i do is think. This
can be both a good thing and at the same time, a horrible thing.
Thinking has honestly got me no where in the past and the fact that i
"overanalyze" life, serves me no purpose. I was talking to a friend
today and we discussed how when it comes to relationships,
"overanalyzing" and going with ur instinct, isnt exactly the best move.
Sure, i know all of us wish that when felt something for someone, we
could go up to them, tell them how we feel, and everything would be
great. But unfortunately, infatuation, relationships, and the wonderful
concept of "liking someone" works in a completely diffrent way. If we
go up to the person and say, "hey listen, i think ur great and would
like to get to know u on a diffrent level", 95 percent of the time, u
will get a negative reaction. For some reason, human beings have the
tendency of wanting what they can't have, myself included...(story of
my life lol). So basically it has come down to "playing the game". I
can't stress how mcuh i HATE the games. But, i've realized that without
"the game", unfortunately there would be no interest. We all know how
playing the game works, but after a while, it becomes tiring...and i'm
tired.
Okay so besides all that, i've just had completely random thoughts
running through my head all day. I guess you could blame it on boredom,
but they're there nonetheless. Here's a few things i think about:
*Why does school seem so ridiculous at the moment
*When will "that feeling" come back to me
*Why does my life consists of mostly "downs", when it should be 50% ups, 50% downs
*Why are certain people such drama queens
*When will i be able to live life "today" and not base my decisions on "yesterday"
*When will i find the perfect guy...he won't be perfect but he'll be perfect for me...
*I'm obsessed w/ Brugal...it helps me forget
*forgetting isnt always the answer
*Letting go feels amazing...letting go of the dream
*i miss it...the feeling
*clubs are getting annoying
*getti's have become a way of life
*being persistant gets u no where
*boy meets world makes me smile =)
*i want to get out of college and start life
*true happiness and feeling fulfilled is my ultimate goal
ok...enough rambling...luv u all! -melu-
*When will "that feeling" come back to me
*Why does my life consists of mostly "downs", when it should be 50% ups, 50% downs
*Why are certain people such drama queens
*When will i be able to live life "today" and not base my decisions on "yesterday"
*When will i find the perfect guy...he won't be perfect but he'll be perfect for me...
*I'm obsessed w/ Brugal...it helps me forget
*forgetting isnt always the answer
*Letting go feels amazing...letting go of the dream
*i miss it...the feeling
*clubs are getting annoying
*getti's have become a way of life
*being persistant gets u no where
*boy meets world makes me smile =)
*i want to get out of college and start life
*true happiness and feeling fulfilled is my ultimate goal
ok...enough rambling...luv u all! -melu-