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i had dreamed of this moment since the day you left me. i wondered what i would say to you if i ever talked to you again. and then tonight you called. after a fucking year you finally call.... i couldnt' say anything all i did was sit there and almost choke. one side of me wanted to yell at you and the other side just wanted it to go back to normal. i didn't know what to say after all this time... after all these nights that i've cried over you... your finally back...
blake called me tonight... from jail. hes supposed to be getting out in may. hes been in there since dec 14 2003. he tried to call me a while ago... but i wasn't home... he said he was gonna write me and try and call me when he could. we didn't talk long, i was eating dinner... theres so much i want to say to him and somany things i wanna ask him... its so weird... i thought i would never talk to him again. i've missed him so much. everytime a relationship doesn't work out i think of him... when things went wrong with jake and i, i wished i was back with blake when nate treated me like shit. i wanted to be with blake... when i had nobody... i wanted to be with blake... i don't know what to think..... i guess all i can do it wait for him to call me later...
blake called me tonight... from jail. hes supposed to be getting out in may. hes been in there since dec 14 2003. he tried to call me a while ago... but i wasn't home... he said he was gonna write me and try and call me when he could. we didn't talk long, i was eating dinner... theres so much i want to say to him and somany things i wanna ask him... its so weird... i thought i would never talk to him again. i've missed him so much. everytime a relationship doesn't work out i think of him... when things went wrong with jake and i, i wished i was back with blake when nate treated me like shit. i wanted to be with blake... when i had nobody... i wanted to be with blake... i don't know what to think..... i guess all i can do it wait for him to call me later...