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so today i went and had a chat with mrs jones and broke down in tears which i knew i would cause i talked to kelsey last night bout all this stuff and broke down in tears so i told her i was gonna talk to mrs jones and i did. but i don't wanna talk bout that. then after i kinda 'calmed down' she was like i have to ask you something and she was like whats going on with this boyfriend of yours and we talked about him and of course she said what everyone says. and lately i have really been thinking about stuff... what if blake and i DO work out. and we stay together like we want to... hes not gonna go to college... he wants me to so he isn't holding me back and he wants what is best for me and wants me to do well. but i want him to do well too. and i do love him but then on the ride home i was listening to my cds and this song came on and i almost started to cry just cause like i dunno. it isn't that i don't think i can do better cause i have and i didn't like them. but i know that is what most people think... that i can do better but i don't want to i'm happy with the person i am with now.. he makes me happy and that is what is most important right now. is that i'm happy. and if everything he says to me is true then we will work out. i miss him so much he will be home in like 4 days.. today is almost over i just gotta make it through this weekend which will be easy and then monday and tuesday till 11:00 when i told him to call me. oh my god i can't believe this... ugh edison starts next week. its gonna be hell. oh well... oh today is my buddys BIRTHDAY! the big one eight. we might hang out tonight. shay is coming over here for a change for the past like 2 months! we are going jogging together... mmmk.. well thats bout it. bye..
heres the song i was listening to....
Better Man
Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Ohh...
Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Yeah...
She loved him, yeah...she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah...that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better...man...
Ohh...ohh...
Uh huh...
Ohh...
i'm afraid thats how it is gonna be and i don't wanna end up like that. everyone starts telling me it isn't gona work adn i get scared and start thinking what if... it will all be okay when blake gets home and we see each other and talk it all out...
heres the song i was listening to....
Better Man
Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Ohh...
Talkin' to herself, there's no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears he's gone
She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, can't find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...
Can't find a better man
Yeah...
She loved him, yeah...she don't want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah...that's why she'll be back again
Can't find a better man
Can't find a better...man...
Ohh...ohh...
Uh huh...
Ohh...
i'm afraid thats how it is gonna be and i don't wanna end up like that. everyone starts telling me it isn't gona work adn i get scared and start thinking what if... it will all be okay when blake gets home and we see each other and talk it all out...