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lately i've been thinking a lot about blake. some good and some bad... is it really gonna work out when he gets home. he'll be home in less then 2 weeks. i'm so busy and have so much going on i'm so tired adn lately i've just been so moody and the littlest thing sets me off. i'm waiting for him to call and i just wanna cry to him. ugh i don't know whats wrong with me i have so much shit going on in my head right now. and some of it i don't even know whats bothering me. its crazy. i just need a break. its time for a break. im not looking forward to my AP test on monday. its gonna be a bitch and i won't know the answers and more then likely i will start to cry cause i'll be so frustrated. i did run today. i was just too tired. i came home showered and fell asleep. i was only gonna rest my eyes for 5 minutes but i feel asleep for an hour it was nice. but now i have chills and a headache... happens all the time when i fall asleep after i take a shower and i'm real tired... its weird. i have anatomy due tomorrow. i haven't started it. and i don't feel like starting it. i'm tired and i wanna sleep. i should probably just write some bull shit answer but i need to get a good grade on this cause i dont have a good grade in that class... ugh and math. i ahte math. my best subject and i'm so lost and confussed. and the thing is i don't even care! we took a quiz in english and i wrote bullshit answers and i didn't care that i totally failed it. i just can't deal with it. i don't have energy to care. why the hell am i so tired? i don't do that much. i dunno. i think i need to go to the doctors and get sleeping pills cause i have trouble falling to sleep at night. maybe thats why i'm so tired. ugh. oh well i'm gonna go lay in bed till blake calls.