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you know who i am don't you. How do i drop the facade when you don't even tell me things?
I'll tell you what. just stop being confused and do what your heart tells you to do. I hate this state of hovering.
The most I'll angst for a while, then go on. At least I can MOVE ON. instead of being here like this wondering what the hell you feel what the hell's up with you.
I STILL WANT YOU AS A FRIEND YOU IDIOT. What I'm pissed about isn't the fact that there's a girl; it's the fact that you've been keeping things like that, forcing me to hover around in this insufferable state. I'll rather KNOW what to feel than WONDER what to feel.
So if you decide to go on that date, JUST GO and stop torturing yourself and me. And get back to who you were last time instead of being distant like this. You're nice to have as a friend.
And it's not a facade all the time; it's how i am when i'm happy. i blog in here when i'm not, but that doesn't make the me here any more real than the hyper me.