Achoo!
I am sick. Boo, sick! Called in sick to work today, sneezed/coughed/sniffled my way through a staff meeting and am now being pampered with homemade onion soup and a fabulous dinner followed by a bubble bath in a huge tub and likely a back-rub, if I ask nicely enough.
I have been fortunate to have several conversations with friends lately, friends I haven't seen or spoken to much since Jim and I broke up. I have been alternately pleased and disheartened when the topic turned to my relationship with Rick and the future we are building together. When I tell them about how happy we are and how fantastic and functional we are as a couple, it is almost always met with skepticism. Too many times now I have heard, "Yeah, he does that/it's great/you're happy now. But that could all change/you might change your mind/he might change in a year, in two years, etc, etc, etc." To that I say Fie! Fie on you, those who have never experienced this kind of love. Perhaps that was a tad harsh; let me rephrase...
I am so sorry that you have not been so fortunate to have experienced this kind of amazing, servant-minded love; the kind of love where each partner gives 100%, none of this 50-50 bullshit. The kind of love that I know down into my bones...that even before I laid eyes on him, I knew that we were right for each other, that in every way that matters, we fit together, that this man was made, molded by God for me - for this. I am sorry that you are so coloured by my past actions that you cannot see the changes I have undergone. There are some out there who feel hurt/betrayal/insult on behalf of someone who does not harbour those feelings toward me. For you, I pray that your hearts will be turned, that you will see the healing that has occurred in the hearts and lives of those directly affected by events of the past. It is not your hurt to be upset about. It is not you who was betrayed. You were simply unaware of what was really going on, that is all. There are some out there that believe I am fickle, impetuous, shallow or flighty. For you, I pray that you will open your eyes and hearts up to see how one brief period of reckless behaviour does not define me in the rest of my life. So please, take your skewed, coloured, filtered view of me, my life and my current choices and set them aside, for they will only serve to make you miserable and to damage what remains of our friendship.
Let's start fresh.
I have been fortunate to have several conversations with friends lately, friends I haven't seen or spoken to much since Jim and I broke up. I have been alternately pleased and disheartened when the topic turned to my relationship with Rick and the future we are building together. When I tell them about how happy we are and how fantastic and functional we are as a couple, it is almost always met with skepticism. Too many times now I have heard, "Yeah, he does that/it's great/you're happy now. But that could all change/you might change your mind/he might change in a year, in two years, etc, etc, etc." To that I say Fie! Fie on you, those who have never experienced this kind of love. Perhaps that was a tad harsh; let me rephrase...
I am so sorry that you have not been so fortunate to have experienced this kind of amazing, servant-minded love; the kind of love where each partner gives 100%, none of this 50-50 bullshit. The kind of love that I know down into my bones...that even before I laid eyes on him, I knew that we were right for each other, that in every way that matters, we fit together, that this man was made, molded by God for me - for this. I am sorry that you are so coloured by my past actions that you cannot see the changes I have undergone. There are some out there who feel hurt/betrayal/insult on behalf of someone who does not harbour those feelings toward me. For you, I pray that your hearts will be turned, that you will see the healing that has occurred in the hearts and lives of those directly affected by events of the past. It is not your hurt to be upset about. It is not you who was betrayed. You were simply unaware of what was really going on, that is all. There are some out there that believe I am fickle, impetuous, shallow or flighty. For you, I pray that you will open your eyes and hearts up to see how one brief period of reckless behaviour does not define me in the rest of my life. So please, take your skewed, coloured, filtered view of me, my life and my current choices and set them aside, for they will only serve to make you miserable and to damage what remains of our friendship.
Let's start fresh.