Little Slaps

[melspeth]

I realize that it may all be part of the grieving/getting over/working through process, but the series of little slaps in the face is beginning to have a cumulative effect.  I genuinely want them to be happy, but the little slaps make it difficult to voice that in a frank manner.  I have worked so hard to remain positive regarding them in this very public forum, not given voice to my disappointment, my disillusionment, my issues with their personality flaws and foibles, my years of feeling neglected and taken for granted and ignored.  I still refuse to delve into those things and many other negative matters.  I find that I am internalizing a lot of the process rather than taking a lower path.  I refuse to hurt others with my pain if I can avoid it.  I've done enough of that for a lifetime.

It's time to talk to a friend about this.