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Last night I had a conversation with someone who I had never really really talked to. I mean we have had our conversations but none like this one. For once I felt like someone actually understands me. I feel like I now have someone to talk to about everything that bothers me. Someone I can trust. To that person (you know who you are)- I enjoyed our converstaion and understanding more that you will ever know. :)
Tonight is my last night in Lake Wales for the summer. Things have been really weird these past few months. KJ has been home since July 4th and I still havent seen him. Scott has been in town for the past 2 weeks and we still havent seen each other. Needless to say leaving is going to be difficult. My Friday night "dates" if you want to call them that with John are going to end. It's been somewhat of a ritual all summer and now that its over I am going to miss them. On those Friday nights we could talk about anything and everything. I have never in my life felt so comfortable talking to a guy about the things we talked about. So John- I am gonna miss you like crazy. You HAVE to come visit me soon!
Tonight is also the last time I am gonna see little Alyssa before I go back to school. She is absolutely the most amazing little girl I have ever been around. Just walking into the room and seeing her grin does more than make my day. I never knew that a one year old child could make me so happy. This does not mean that I am ready to have kids, but she makes me so happy. Not only that, but I have found a best friend in her mom, my cousin, Michelle. She and I hadn't really talked since we were little and this summer I have spent more time with her and Alyssa than anyone else. Crazy I know. But I loved it.
So tomorrow morning I am loading my car and heading back to Jacksonville. I am both nervous and excited at the same time. I know this is my third year but I still get nervous everytime I load up to leave here. I love my friends in Jacksonville and it has nothing to do with them, but it does have a lot to do with being anxious and nervous about the upcoming year. My goals this year are higher than they were last year. I want to bring up my GPA, I need to. I hate feeling stupid when I get my grades after every semester. That has to stop.
To all my friends here in Polk County, I love you all. Please come and visit as often as you like!
Lastly to my friends in Jax, I cant wait to get back. I've missed yall so much this summer!!! Tomorrow is the big day.
Tonight is my last night in Lake Wales for the summer. Things have been really weird these past few months. KJ has been home since July 4th and I still havent seen him. Scott has been in town for the past 2 weeks and we still havent seen each other. Needless to say leaving is going to be difficult. My Friday night "dates" if you want to call them that with John are going to end. It's been somewhat of a ritual all summer and now that its over I am going to miss them. On those Friday nights we could talk about anything and everything. I have never in my life felt so comfortable talking to a guy about the things we talked about. So John- I am gonna miss you like crazy. You HAVE to come visit me soon!
Tonight is also the last time I am gonna see little Alyssa before I go back to school. She is absolutely the most amazing little girl I have ever been around. Just walking into the room and seeing her grin does more than make my day. I never knew that a one year old child could make me so happy. This does not mean that I am ready to have kids, but she makes me so happy. Not only that, but I have found a best friend in her mom, my cousin, Michelle. She and I hadn't really talked since we were little and this summer I have spent more time with her and Alyssa than anyone else. Crazy I know. But I loved it.
So tomorrow morning I am loading my car and heading back to Jacksonville. I am both nervous and excited at the same time. I know this is my third year but I still get nervous everytime I load up to leave here. I love my friends in Jacksonville and it has nothing to do with them, but it does have a lot to do with being anxious and nervous about the upcoming year. My goals this year are higher than they were last year. I want to bring up my GPA, I need to. I hate feeling stupid when I get my grades after every semester. That has to stop.
To all my friends here in Polk County, I love you all. Please come and visit as often as you like!
Lastly to my friends in Jax, I cant wait to get back. I've missed yall so much this summer!!! Tomorrow is the big day.