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should i give in.. should i say it? you intrigue me. so what? big deal. these types of things happen to alot of girls.. and understanding the lack of a mutual feeling.. these things happen too. and if there were to be mutual feelings, im not like silly girls, im not like that type to say these, things these really big silly secrets, im more of a plain and simple silly secrets type of girl.. like announcing at lunch that i wanna get laid but i'm still waiting for my fear of giant woah-man eating dick to pass; these things are silly simple secrets i can share.. but this. no. i wont even say it, cause it's really just that silly. really. it just matters that not-much. and taylor. well taylor, he's my best friend. so i know that he would understand, but taylor. well taylor, he's the last person to share this with. i take that back. a person is really the last person i want to share this with. oh my secrets are lusting at my brain again tempting me to recognize them, whisper them, say it.. outloud.. let the devil hear. let them be true.. but they're not. the only thing truthfully standing right now is my lack of sleep and homework.. and ana's i.m. thats been glowing, off-on-off-on, like her semi-simple message is really all that urgent.. some mention of the dentist or her satanic babysitting expierence i'm sure. i love her.
my secrets are no more, i've dijested them.. and now i will spit them out.
i hate you. and you'll never know it, but i do. i hate you.
it's better this way.
my secrets are no more, i've dijested them.. and now i will spit them out.
i hate you. and you'll never know it, but i do. i hate you.
it's better this way.