¬¬¬In an unmarked grave in your heart¬¬¬
I'm not sure if I'm off school because of the gig, or because of Kaz. Well, actually, I do. I'll start off with the shit that happened yesterday, maybe then I might cheer myself up with the happiness that was ruined by the green.
So the other night, I was having such a shit time at home. I'd been crying my fucking eyes out to Calum and Graham, and I really wanted to talk to Kaz- I mean, if you can't talk to your own boyfriend about your problems, who can you talk to, right? Wrong. Kaz wouldn't pick up the phone at all, and since I thought he was at that all nighter, I assumed he'd either got pissed or hooked up.
Well, I saw him yesterday, and he didn't do either- he was in fucking hospital. Yea, hospital- he'd been stupid enough to cut "kill me" into his wrists. First off, he's lied to me- he told me he'd stopped with all that. I mean, I wouldn't have minded about what he'd said if it was just this one last time he'd done it, but he was in fucking hospital, and he was talking to THE SLUT (you'll find out) about doing it again. Also- who get's the blame for it all?? "Well, it says 'kill me', Mel must have done something to Kaz". Oh yea, fucking great.
Another reason yesterday was shit was because I was fucking ignored by Kaz. He said this girl who still thinks they're going out is there, and so he's avoiding her because her brother would knock the shit out of him. Fair enough, avoid her, but don't fucking avoid me as well!! Fuck's sake- Kaz spent all day hanging out with a couple of fucking sluts at the green instead of bothering with me. I was litterally on the other side of the path, while he was on the steps, and he was just hanging out with this stupid fat bitch called Ashleigh. Come on, like Kaz would ever want this bitch- she's pathetic, fat, freckly, weird and is just generally a stupid poser bitch who can't even be arsed to find clothes that fit, or guys who arn't taken.
Well actually, that's not necessarily true- because if Kaz doesn't go back to the nice guy he was last week by Saturday, it's over with us completely, no ifs or buts this time. And I won't even warn him about all the guys who are going to beat the shit out of him for hurting me.
And now, let's be happy. I met and saw HIM live last night. It was fucking amazing, and I have a couple of things to share with you all. I'll put it behind a cut though, this is getting a little too long.
So yea, I had to wake up at 5.30am, but I did it- I got my wristband before school in HMV to go meet HIM at this record signing. After school we went straight away to the signing.
The band seem like nice guys, it was the security that sucked cock. We hardly got to speak to the band themselves. I did get to give Ville that picture I drew of him yesterday, with messages from everyone on it. Also..
I managed to fulfil one of my dreams- I lent Ville Valo a tab...lmfao He was all like "Wow, thanks!"- he smokes 50 a day, so I don't really think he appreaciated it that much, but it was nice of him to act so grateful.
I also got my Dark Light CD signed too, which rocks my socks off. It's just sweet as, and It's already taken up a space next to all my other signed CDs x]
Sorry it's a bit big, my scanner's a bitch.
The gig itself was amazing. We managed to lose Jenny and Calum within 5 minutes of getting inside, but still, we had fun. Jeeeeesus though, I wish I could have been left alone to see the band in peace.
What I mean by that is, I had Gary, Robin and two other random dudes all over me all night. Ick. I mean, there's being my friend who likes me, and there's being a smarmy leech. What was the worst of it, I wonder? Robin not letting me do through the support act when I was blatenly trying to break free? Smarmy Gary actually holding me while HIM played "right here in my arms"? Or maybe just the both of them fighting over who was to give me a piggy back so I could see?
Actually, no- it's the reason that all of these leeches know I'm with Kaz.
I mean, one of them who I saw was only there because he recignised me as Kaz's girlfriend, and he still tried to hit on me. Argh, what is it with guys? There's Robin, Gary, random #1, random #2, Graham and now, as I heard last night from Lauren- Dean. Eep- Jenny's cousin?? Pfft, guys suck so fucking much.
See, at least Random #3 was a nice guy. I'd lost Calum and Jenny, like I said before, and I couldn't find them at the end of the gig either. I saw that security guard who rules, and I asked him if there was a phone I could use- he said no, but this guy next to me was like "hey, you can use my phone if you like". So I stood in the que with him to the cloakroom. He seemed like a nice guy, still. But yea, I found Calum before we even got to the cloak room, so I just gave the guy a "thanks anyways" and said goodbye. He wasn't a pathetic leech like the others- why can't all guys be like that??
Anyways, the gig ruled. Not necessarily the best, but yea, one of the best. Valo is a fucking legend.
PS- Sharon and Kara have got pictures of Valo sparking up the tab I gave him on their phones, when they get some money on them they said they'll put them on the 'net ;]
So the other night, I was having such a shit time at home. I'd been crying my fucking eyes out to Calum and Graham, and I really wanted to talk to Kaz- I mean, if you can't talk to your own boyfriend about your problems, who can you talk to, right? Wrong. Kaz wouldn't pick up the phone at all, and since I thought he was at that all nighter, I assumed he'd either got pissed or hooked up.
Well, I saw him yesterday, and he didn't do either- he was in fucking hospital. Yea, hospital- he'd been stupid enough to cut "kill me" into his wrists. First off, he's lied to me- he told me he'd stopped with all that. I mean, I wouldn't have minded about what he'd said if it was just this one last time he'd done it, but he was in fucking hospital, and he was talking to THE SLUT (you'll find out) about doing it again. Also- who get's the blame for it all?? "Well, it says 'kill me', Mel must have done something to Kaz". Oh yea, fucking great.
Another reason yesterday was shit was because I was fucking ignored by Kaz. He said this girl who still thinks they're going out is there, and so he's avoiding her because her brother would knock the shit out of him. Fair enough, avoid her, but don't fucking avoid me as well!! Fuck's sake- Kaz spent all day hanging out with a couple of fucking sluts at the green instead of bothering with me. I was litterally on the other side of the path, while he was on the steps, and he was just hanging out with this stupid fat bitch called Ashleigh. Come on, like Kaz would ever want this bitch- she's pathetic, fat, freckly, weird and is just generally a stupid poser bitch who can't even be arsed to find clothes that fit, or guys who arn't taken.
Well actually, that's not necessarily true- because if Kaz doesn't go back to the nice guy he was last week by Saturday, it's over with us completely, no ifs or buts this time. And I won't even warn him about all the guys who are going to beat the shit out of him for hurting me.
And now, let's be happy. I met and saw HIM live last night. It was fucking amazing, and I have a couple of things to share with you all. I'll put it behind a cut though, this is getting a little too long.
So yea, I had to wake up at 5.30am, but I did it- I got my wristband before school in HMV to go meet HIM at this record signing. After school we went straight away to the signing.
The band seem like nice guys, it was the security that sucked cock. We hardly got to speak to the band themselves. I did get to give Ville that picture I drew of him yesterday, with messages from everyone on it. Also..
I managed to fulfil one of my dreams- I lent Ville Valo a tab...lmfao He was all like "Wow, thanks!"- he smokes 50 a day, so I don't really think he appreaciated it that much, but it was nice of him to act so grateful.
I also got my Dark Light CD signed too, which rocks my socks off. It's just sweet as, and It's already taken up a space next to all my other signed CDs x]
Sorry it's a bit big, my scanner's a bitch.
The gig itself was amazing. We managed to lose Jenny and Calum within 5 minutes of getting inside, but still, we had fun. Jeeeeesus though, I wish I could have been left alone to see the band in peace.
What I mean by that is, I had Gary, Robin and two other random dudes all over me all night. Ick. I mean, there's being my friend who likes me, and there's being a smarmy leech. What was the worst of it, I wonder? Robin not letting me do through the support act when I was blatenly trying to break free? Smarmy Gary actually holding me while HIM played "right here in my arms"? Or maybe just the both of them fighting over who was to give me a piggy back so I could see?
Actually, no- it's the reason that all of these leeches know I'm with Kaz.
I mean, one of them who I saw was only there because he recignised me as Kaz's girlfriend, and he still tried to hit on me. Argh, what is it with guys? There's Robin, Gary, random #1, random #2, Graham and now, as I heard last night from Lauren- Dean. Eep- Jenny's cousin?? Pfft, guys suck so fucking much.
See, at least Random #3 was a nice guy. I'd lost Calum and Jenny, like I said before, and I couldn't find them at the end of the gig either. I saw that security guard who rules, and I asked him if there was a phone I could use- he said no, but this guy next to me was like "hey, you can use my phone if you like". So I stood in the que with him to the cloakroom. He seemed like a nice guy, still. But yea, I found Calum before we even got to the cloak room, so I just gave the guy a "thanks anyways" and said goodbye. He wasn't a pathetic leech like the others- why can't all guys be like that??
Anyways, the gig ruled. Not necessarily the best, but yea, one of the best. Valo is a fucking legend.
PS- Sharon and Kara have got pictures of Valo sparking up the tab I gave him on their phones, when they get some money on them they said they'll put them on the 'net ;]