update
ok so my trip went really well. although i spread myself a bit too thin to see everyone i wanted to and still spend as much time as i could with my kids. the visit went so much better than expected, you cannot imagine how relieved i was that it went as well as it did. i got an offer to come back to michigan. a friend offered me a room of my own and a vehicle to use if i wanted to come back. needless to say this is tempting because of my kids. however i am unable to really think about it at this time. i am not "fixed" enough to be within certain distances of certain peoples without falling into old habits. habits ive kicked. until then i am here i guess. i love florida its been so good to me on so many levels and so not on so many others. i am not sure what to do but i wanted to let everyone know i got back in one piece and all is for the most part well. love y'all.