I wanna be a kid again.
As summer finally rolls to an end, I sit at work wondering what has happened to it.
What happened to my plans of lying on the beach all day? What about my trips to the Pavilion and Nascar? Where did all my fun go?
Oh I know, my fun had been here on the internet as I sit on my ass at work.
Working so much actually makes me want to go to school. Isn't that a bit sad? Then again it is SENIOR year...
But senior year means planning for college, which is a very sore subject for my family. I want to go to Coastal Carolina. My choice. I love Myrtle Beach too much to leave it, plus Coastal is a decent school. So what's the problem you ask. Well the problem is that my parents want me to live at home. Yes, we are about to move into our new house where I'll have a bigger room and my own bathroom. But I still don't want to live there. I know I'll have free food and a free roof over my head. I'll probably still be spoiled. But my parents are evil! I am 17 years old and I ask to stay the night at my friends house, they say no. Why? Because "I spent the night out last weekend!" That's bull shit. I know so many people who spend the night out almost every night and I can't even spend one night a week out with out a fight. Yes, my parents are good, they give me money and let me stay out late, well till midnight. I just don't get them. I'm not one of those girls that go out and party every night and drink till I'm shitfaced. I don't have sex with random guys, I don't do drugs. I am a really good girl compared to a lot of girls I go to school with! But for some reason they won't let me stay the night out.
Myabe it's an only child thing. I've always wished I had a brother.
And by the way, I never get any comments anymore...
If you want me to stay at home during college, Back off! You say that you will let me come and go as I please, but that's bull shit. The first night I stay out past 2 am you will freak out. If I want to stay at a friends house, once again you will freak out. It's just not going to work. You are way too over protective. I am 17 almost 18. Let me grow up! It's not like I'm going far away to school, I agreed on CCU to please you. I am growing up and you need to face it. I'm going to party and drink. I'm going to have sex! Just be glad you have a daughter smart enough not to expiriment with drugs. Everyone tells you that you're crazy for not sending me away. I'm a good kid and you need to learn to trust me. You are about to make your daughter want to move out at 18. You are pushing me too far and I've had enough. So learn to accept that I have friends and I want to hang out with them. And learn to accept the fact that your little girl is growing up and you can't protect her anymore, she needs to do things on her own. I know it's a tough world, but I'm a smart girl and you've taught me well, now let me expirience things on my own. I can do it.
Love,
Ashley