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this blog is fill with spider webs .
gimme few moments to clear it up aitee ;
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still not sleeping . i want to watch sunrise today . i really haven't seen it for a very long time as i always woke up way pass the time . and somehow, i feel drifted away from my purpose of life . i became more and more negligent of my goal and what's the most important in my life . i'm homesick . i miss home . i miss mama and ayah . i miss an-chan . i miss nii-chan . i miss my family . i miss my life . when i think back, i always take my family for granted . always thought that mama and ayah will always be there, forever with me . talking back to mama and make her mad and sad . worrying ayah with only doing what i want . and i swear i really regret it and always thinking what if i didn't get the chance to say what i never i got to say ? i'm never the out spoken type . haven't even said "l Love You" face to face before . i wanna go home T___T though i know that i wouldn't said it out loud, but i just wanna go home and hug mama and ayah because with just that, all worries and burden gone in the mid air . what would happen if there's no one waiting for me at home and no more 'warm-tight-hug' for me ? what would home means to me by that time ? what will be the purpose of my life ?
before that time comes, i will appreciate and treasure them all my life because i won't trade it for the universe . don't give a damn what others think of me because i know that my family knows what i'm doing and they always be there for me . i'm not afraid of choosing the wrong path in my life because i know i always have a home to go back too and family whom will always bring me back to life .
what's wrong with falling down ? i can always stand up again . i'm still alive aren't i .
and the most important thing, my family accept me with just the way i am and i don't care about anything else .
