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I have such a hard time expressing how and I feel and why I feel that way. not really sure why, but keeping everything bottled up it starting to eat at me, and my bottle is getting too full anyway. so i tried writting some poems as an outlet for my emotions, i kno they arent any good writting, and i prolly shouldnt post them considering people are just going to laugh, but its how im feeling
imaginary world of happy
so misunderstood, feeling driven not to stay
my actions speak for themselves
you just cant hear what they say
so with this smile I cover the tears
you it fools, thinking i hold no fears
convinced im happy, everything is right
but I kno different, how I am at night
agonizing over ever daily mistake
these thoughts alone keep me awake
so much more that my mind wont reveal
this pain i have, i'll continue to conceal
so come along in my world of make beleive
i'll tell you im happy, thats all you'll conceive
substance
dreams heartache pain and tears
caused by guilt, repressed by fears
laughter smiles hope and glee
all you allow yourself to see
substance of my life
the aspects I only let show
to kno the truth
who i am, whats in my mind
take a closer look
i kno, the things you'll find
dreams hearache pain and tears
caused by guilt, repressed by fears
suicidal motivation
you judge me today
i kill me tommarow
it had to be this way
so restle with your sorrow
you say that you kno me
about my life, who i am
youre too blind for the truth to see
frustration ends, you hear a bam
you didnt take the time
to care for someone lonely
concluding this hostile rhym
remember me, with dreams only
surreal
as your voice raises
my pain increases
you demand answers
a reply right now
frusration makes you scream]
wanting to understand
becomes your only dream
tears forming at her eyes
rolling down her cheeks
it tears at my heart
bleeds from my body
to me this happens
unsure of why
it gives me a fantasy
the dream where i die
well i guess thats all for now, sorry if you think these are dumb, i dont really give a shit
imaginary world of happy
so misunderstood, feeling driven not to stay
my actions speak for themselves
you just cant hear what they say
so with this smile I cover the tears
you it fools, thinking i hold no fears
convinced im happy, everything is right
but I kno different, how I am at night
agonizing over ever daily mistake
these thoughts alone keep me awake
so much more that my mind wont reveal
this pain i have, i'll continue to conceal
so come along in my world of make beleive
i'll tell you im happy, thats all you'll conceive
substance
dreams heartache pain and tears
caused by guilt, repressed by fears
laughter smiles hope and glee
all you allow yourself to see
substance of my life
the aspects I only let show
to kno the truth
who i am, whats in my mind
take a closer look
i kno, the things you'll find
dreams hearache pain and tears
caused by guilt, repressed by fears
suicidal motivation
you judge me today
i kill me tommarow
it had to be this way
so restle with your sorrow
you say that you kno me
about my life, who i am
youre too blind for the truth to see
frustration ends, you hear a bam
you didnt take the time
to care for someone lonely
concluding this hostile rhym
remember me, with dreams only
surreal
as your voice raises
my pain increases
you demand answers
a reply right now
frusration makes you scream]
wanting to understand
becomes your only dream
tears forming at her eyes
rolling down her cheeks
it tears at my heart
bleeds from my body
to me this happens
unsure of why
it gives me a fantasy
the dream where i die
well i guess thats all for now, sorry if you think these are dumb, i dont really give a shit