Sigh...
I'm feeling a need to vent a little, and at least here, people can decide whether or not to pay attention, and I'm none the wiser about it. Right now I'm overly stressed about my life, trying to figure out how I'm gonna get it back on track, and wondering when things will start going right. Since the last 3 years have been a downhill tumble, I have no clue how I'm gonna get out of the hole I've found myself in. I have no clue where I'm going to be within the next year, let along the next ten years, and that terrifies me, because I hate feeling like I have no control over my life. There are a lot of things I want to learn, or do, and don't want to lie down and watch my opportunities go by. Even worse than that, I don't want to know that I never tried seeking them in the first place. I wish that there wasn't so much that I regret doing or not doing. But it's to late to fix those things now, and I feel like anthing I might try to do is futile. I feel so helpless, awash in a sea of inner turmoil. I need a hug.