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I know its been a while. I didnt plan on ever writing in it again but now this has become a personal entry. It's like a reminder for me in the next year and a half. Its all the things I need to do in college. Ever since I visited New Paltz I've been thinking about how I want to present myself and what I want to accomplish. I know im only a junior but it seems as if its piling up on me. I'm so excited for college that I've actually become obsessed with the idea on changing myself completely, at least appearance wise. I dont want to seem like an uptight when i go to college. Ever since I've been a little kid walking through the town, I've admired the free flowing, liberated women look. They seem so comfortable within themselves and don't fear opinions. That's something I've never experienced and i want to change that one bit at a time. Clothing is just the first part. The second part is a lifestyle change. I wanna be able to challenge myself buy doing something so unbelievable to me and so rebellious to the lifestyle i have at home. It would just be proving to myself that I can do other things that are outside the box. If I could do something like attempting to be vegan for a month would be a huge step for me because i love red meat. Even doing dreads would satisfy my craving for an adventure. I also want to find love in college (Who doesn't). Maybe its the fact that I've never been in a relationship, but I have seriously given up hope for a relationship in high school. I waited about 5 years for a relationship and i can hold off for another year. I liked most of the people i saw in NP and they seemed to be pretty inviting and interesting people. hats the type of person I want to have in my life. I think i should stop talking about this now because I still have plenty of time and I jut want to go to bed so bye untill a year