captivating...
it's about time. i'm going to re-read the book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge. i got so much out of it the first time. i feel a tug at my heart to read it again. i've been so overtaken by the beauty around me as of late. perhaps because spring is in the air and i'm a spring baby. hmmm...
despite the unpredictable weather, i've seen beauty in the formation and the hues of the clouds both yesterday and today. if i had the opportunity i would sit and stare at them for hours. but alas, i have this funny little work thing i have to do. all.weekend.long. grrr... too bad i wasn't working last weekend and had this weekend off that's coming up. oh well. all is well with my soul.
i've gotten so anal about my netflix queue that i'll be juggling it around again to coincide with any movie references made in the book by Stasi. last time i read the book i was in the midst of a semester and had no time to watch the movies mentioned. this time i want to get a fuller experience and see what my heart has been missing. getting a visual may be one of the things that helps to break the lattices of my heart and to open wide the window of my heart so i can see God more fully. i want to have a better relationship with my Jesus. i love spending time getting to know Him. i know i have all eternity but i have the desire NOW! reading my bible each day according to the One Year Bible schedule has been great. now that i've gotten through my 4 years of SCC, each of the stories recounted in the bible have deeper meaning to me. i can better understand what was happening and am able to better explain it to others.
i actually started to clean my room last night. had a nice chat with suela and due to the blessing of speakerphone, i was able to walk around my room while sorting through papers to find what needed filing, what needed dealing with and what needed to be recycled. it's a beautiful thing to be able to see my scanner again. it had become a shelf. i would merely take the pile from on top of the scanner and move it to my bed. no big. then i would move it back when i was done. i'm sure that's not good for the scanner and it looked horrible! i also took a big chunk out of a pile of whoknowswhat on the floor in front of my large bookcase. then since i was still motivated i started to clean up my desk. wonder of wonders! it's better but not free from clutter. there is so much to clean in this room, it's ridiculous.
i have actual days off now so those days are used for cleaning my disaster of a domicile. i have to see what i can be rid of and what needs a place to go. a little reorg may be in order. most likely there's a need to pitch and purge like we used to do at the last office i worked in. i'm sure there are plenty of items in my room that either need a new home (such as the circular file), or some items may not really belong in my room. that's always a real possibility.
one of the things that is holding up some reorg is the "ugly project." i need to scan the picture of this doozy. you all have been hearing about this project for years since it's taking me that long to finish it. there are several reasons for that: 1) i didn't know how to make the squares necessary to create the project (minor detail); 2) once i learned a simply granny square i needed to go to another level and learn 2-color diagonal granny squares. since i could not wrap my mind around that the project could not continue; 3) i was in school most of the time i would try to work on this treasure and so i would put it off repeatedly.
well... i have since learned to make both types of granny square necessary for this project. it took me a long time (years) to figure out the 2-color diagonal ones and i did a dance of joy when i finally could do it on my own. my mom showed me twice and there was no "click" coz i just didn't get it. it takes me about 10-15 minutes to make one square and i have to make hundreds of them. it's a daunting task but i feel it needs to be finished so i can have some closure on this project. i have doubts as to whether the girl who asked me to make the blanket even remembers about it. perhaps she does but i definitely do since it's been a thorn in my side for about 6 or 7 years now. ugh. it's time to get it done. my goal is to have it done by the end of the year if not sooner. i don't want to look at it anymore.
i can say that the anger brought on by this project has subsided greatly. i will have to thank the girl for this learning experience and apologize for my anger toward her over the years because of this project. i could have said no when she gave me the book and the bag of yarn but i felt obligated since all the supplies were presented at the same time. then there's that i have trouble saying no to a challenge. bigget challenge yet. yipe!
despite the unpredictable weather, i've seen beauty in the formation and the hues of the clouds both yesterday and today. if i had the opportunity i would sit and stare at them for hours. but alas, i have this funny little work thing i have to do. all.weekend.long. grrr... too bad i wasn't working last weekend and had this weekend off that's coming up. oh well. all is well with my soul.
i've gotten so anal about my netflix queue that i'll be juggling it around again to coincide with any movie references made in the book by Stasi. last time i read the book i was in the midst of a semester and had no time to watch the movies mentioned. this time i want to get a fuller experience and see what my heart has been missing. getting a visual may be one of the things that helps to break the lattices of my heart and to open wide the window of my heart so i can see God more fully. i want to have a better relationship with my Jesus. i love spending time getting to know Him. i know i have all eternity but i have the desire NOW! reading my bible each day according to the One Year Bible schedule has been great. now that i've gotten through my 4 years of SCC, each of the stories recounted in the bible have deeper meaning to me. i can better understand what was happening and am able to better explain it to others.
i actually started to clean my room last night. had a nice chat with suela and due to the blessing of speakerphone, i was able to walk around my room while sorting through papers to find what needed filing, what needed dealing with and what needed to be recycled. it's a beautiful thing to be able to see my scanner again. it had become a shelf. i would merely take the pile from on top of the scanner and move it to my bed. no big. then i would move it back when i was done. i'm sure that's not good for the scanner and it looked horrible! i also took a big chunk out of a pile of whoknowswhat on the floor in front of my large bookcase. then since i was still motivated i started to clean up my desk. wonder of wonders! it's better but not free from clutter. there is so much to clean in this room, it's ridiculous.
i have actual days off now so those days are used for cleaning my disaster of a domicile. i have to see what i can be rid of and what needs a place to go. a little reorg may be in order. most likely there's a need to pitch and purge like we used to do at the last office i worked in. i'm sure there are plenty of items in my room that either need a new home (such as the circular file), or some items may not really belong in my room. that's always a real possibility.
one of the things that is holding up some reorg is the "ugly project." i need to scan the picture of this doozy. you all have been hearing about this project for years since it's taking me that long to finish it. there are several reasons for that: 1) i didn't know how to make the squares necessary to create the project (minor detail); 2) once i learned a simply granny square i needed to go to another level and learn 2-color diagonal granny squares. since i could not wrap my mind around that the project could not continue; 3) i was in school most of the time i would try to work on this treasure and so i would put it off repeatedly.
well... i have since learned to make both types of granny square necessary for this project. it took me a long time (years) to figure out the 2-color diagonal ones and i did a dance of joy when i finally could do it on my own. my mom showed me twice and there was no "click" coz i just didn't get it. it takes me about 10-15 minutes to make one square and i have to make hundreds of them. it's a daunting task but i feel it needs to be finished so i can have some closure on this project. i have doubts as to whether the girl who asked me to make the blanket even remembers about it. perhaps she does but i definitely do since it's been a thorn in my side for about 6 or 7 years now. ugh. it's time to get it done. my goal is to have it done by the end of the year if not sooner. i don't want to look at it anymore.
i can say that the anger brought on by this project has subsided greatly. i will have to thank the girl for this learning experience and apologize for my anger toward her over the years because of this project. i could have said no when she gave me the book and the bag of yarn but i felt obligated since all the supplies were presented at the same time. then there's that i have trouble saying no to a challenge. bigget challenge yet. yipe!